its the last day of may today! and may has been a month that's very fulfilling. haha. firstly and i think for most, i fell for someone and think going to fall out of love soon. well but that's of course not the only thing i care about. haha. may was a month many good things happened (: like i bonded well with my classmates, reunited with tuition mates and also reunited with the clique, and of course celebrated my birthday with a big group of almost 40 people for the first time! :D to put it short, I LOVE THE MONTH OF MAY (: haha.

my birthday with KAY <33

my birthday with the clique <33

my birthay with DMAT <33

pressies from KAY :D

pressie from cs :D

pressies from DMAT :D

how i love the huge bday card (:

reunited with the 7 years or friendship (:

and that 6 years of tuitioning together (:

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today went to airport to send cladys off to osaka, poor cladys was still rushing her podcast at the airport! and she was so worried about it. she went into the departure hall like 5 mins before the gate was closed or sth. mans.. haha. so didnt have chance to take photos with her so in the end we took ourselves -.- haha. skipped guitar class and wasted money. sighs. haha

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hope june will be as good a month, or even better! :D

(although there's a mixture of emo-ness these days) haha.

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you and i = absolute incompability and impossility

SUPPOSEDLY FRIDAY 30 MAY 2008

today is full of shit. haha. first went to school early in the morning to pract keys. then when mrs soh came.. die. i became the FIRST DMAT-er to take the keys test because dingchao was late!!! rahh. but it was fine la, just screwed up a little here and there, hopefully can still do quite well. then had more than 3 hours break before math, so did some CD reflection work, and then uno-ed with dc, elliot, renjie and boy(space)friend. then i got so pissed coz all of them were against me! ): hahaha. nothing much, lunched at FC6 as usual. then math was total screwed for me. the whole lesson i was talking throughout with laopo and shuyue.. i really gotta do loads of revision for determinants and matrices during the hols :O

then after math, waited for almost 2 hours for 01 to finish their class, in which i really dunno what's the reason why i waited. probably the only reason is to get back my earpiece from boy(space)friend. haha. sat outside 2023 for damn long because there were no empty rooms. wait, wait and wait. uno-ed again. haha. in the end i didnt even go hard rock cafe with the rest coz of the concert. haha.

then dinnered with laopo and shuyue at PS LJS, and after that rushed off to city hall to meet xy. went to VCH and jaime was late! so we missed the first piece totally. sigh. haha. but the whole concert, i was damn distracted. by... sighs... then after the concert, bought some bread and munched before boarding the train home. took me about an hour and a half to get home. thus i reached at 1215 am. and jaime said i became fatter! so as of tmr, im gonna start dieting. rahh. so tired now.


laopo and daughter. hahaha


clique at yating's concert (: cs couldnt come ):



jaime (:


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to love or not to love, that's a question...

today i would say is a totally shit day. in fact nothing went well. for 2 consecutive weeks i loved wednesdays and hated thursdays. don't know why. probably im not fated with the number 4. oh wells. chiong-ed sight reading quite alot today. then laopo and dc told me that last min chiong-ing wont work. SIGHNESS. what to do sia... its just tmr.. or i should say, today, in like... ABOUT 8 HOURS' TIME! :O yawns. really feel like ponning math tmr. dunno if i should?! hmmm.



well anyways, then after school, proceeded once again on my lonely train journey to bpp to meet cs to head for clarice's father's bday. then met glenn and weiquan, anuty shirley and uncle robin. the whole atmosphere was weird! haha. but yeah. then i had to leave after a while, for singing lesson. today my comments for the song i sang was all damn good(feeling wise), because i was supposed to bring out the emotion of the song, and laoshi and classmates all said i did well. perhaps, i was already in the emo mood, thats why i did so well. haha. i guess i gotta be emo every thurs in order to sing well with emotions. then headed home. yupp.


laopo (:

cs (:


i really dunno why we're standing in such an awkward position, but i really miss them! (:

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The signs of jealousy are showing bit by bit. And i hate it for not being able to control it. I really think its impossible between us. Everything about you seems to be too overloading for me, it's too taxing.. Help me... I think ILY, i think ILY..

today started moody for me as well. but wasnt that bad. went early to supposedly help jas with math but in the end i wasnt of any help, sorry laopo! ): i was so exhausted coz i didnt sleep well again last night, so i lied on the table at 2025 and tried to sleep a bit more. but my heart felt so uneasy, that i could only fall asleep after like 30 mins. and slept all the way till cladys came in to class. then math is... sighness. then lunched at FC6 as usual, except that this time i noticed that houston has a inspirational face. hahah. then midi... nothing much as well.



then after that was the fun part. i really love the sound of a cello :D learnt the C major scale on the cello today :D hahaha. i had to open my legs so wide. but im so used to it so i guess its alright (: then after an hour of cello lesson, went back to 2024 to look for the rest. that was when we started GOSSIPING.. about 2 people. oh man, i feel extremely guilty now. God please forgive me.. but i must admit i did have fun gossiping with them :/ i am so sinful! hahaha sigh. then after that, went on to PS with laopo, dc and elliot, to yamaha. i went to get a clarinet reed and they sorta 'accompanied'. then dinnered at mos burger. haha and kinda surprisingly its dc's first time at mos burger. AND THE COFFEE SHAKE IS KINDA NICE! haha. then homed. KEYS test on friday, i think im gonna flunk sight reading ):



to her: i think these few days i really feel that im beginning to treasure our friendship more than ever. im really praying hard that no matter what happens it'll not spoil our friendship. but i feel like my affection for him gets more and more each day... probably you too. what to do? love him, love him not?



我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好回答

back to STC today to collect the yearbook which i've ordered. im disappointed with the quality can.. 11 bucks for such a thin yearbook, this its the thinnest of all the 4 that i have. oh wells. i think i miss secondary school. hmm. haha. met laopo for lunch and she was very not used to my 'girly' side because she saw my grad photo in the yearbook. laopo, you'll see more of the other side of me sooner or later, 3 years aint a short time (:

music theory test was alright, there were no questions that was extremely difficult or what, just pray i dont make any careless mistakes. yupp. and im freaking out for sight reading on fri. sighness. math tmr, not gonna do anything about it :/ out again later to get clarice's father's bday pressie o.O hahaha weird, but its true (:



you have no clue of what you can do to my brain, especially when its left idling and not being used. what power do you have to make us obsessed over you? that's a question i don't know how to answer. to her: sorry, i think you'd regret telling me what u told me, but i really cant ignore your feelings even if you ask me to, because you are one of the many whom i treasure.

he flooded my brain. who can save me???

back with the pictures for sat night :D

double chin!! hide!!! haha

i love KAY and all of them :DDD

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tmr is my first test ever in SP. MUSIC THEORY. which i am very unconfident about. so gonna chiong now. JIAYOU peixiu and DMAT (:

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im falling deeper into your trap :O

just came back from a long day out studying at macs today. its been a long time since i last did that. like since the O level period? haha.

woke up early specially to do my podcast, coz i haven't recorded my own voice yet. seems like the whole thing is gonna be damn screwed up, and i havent thought of what background music to fit it yet ): gonna put them tgt later on to see how it sounds. then went to fajar macs to meet clarice. maths is really driving me nuts. just 5 questions alone already drained all my energy, for which i spent about 3 hours for only FIVE questions. yawns. then i went all out to help clarice with her chinese, which in the end even i myself became confused. what gong han, bao zhang bao dao, everything seems like ages ago. blah blah blah, then i came back.

i'm tired, feel like sleeping. but cant coz got tons of work still incomplete. think laopo wants to join the morning class tmr for REMT, so i'll go with her as well. yupp.


ALL THE BEST TO CLARICE AND ALL THOSE TAKING THEIR CHINESE O'S TOMORROW! JIAYOU!! :D

supposedly SATURDAY 24th MAY 2008

finally got to relax myself a bit after emo-ing for the past few days.. and ZHIHUI IS 17 NOW! haha.

this morning met clarice and cs for breakfast, and i was supposed to revise chinese with clarice but apparantly we did nothing much because i had to rush off.. and cs and i were inonsiderately cam-whoring in front of clarice with my macbook, because we were too bored, resulting in clarice not being able to concentrate i guess.. SORRY! i promise tmr i'll not play a fool and study with u! or rather, later on in the morning coz its already 130 am.. haha.

and then zhihui's surprise party didnt really turn out to be a surprise.. screwed up alot of stuff.. haha. dinnered at yoshi at taka, then went on to late night karaoke at partyworld in orchard. today's K didnt really seem like K, because i was practically screaming instead of singing, resulting in my throat feeling extremely uncomfortable now.. like an adam's apple stuck there >.<

i think we were all trying to look emo. hahah

we are dirty girls who dont brush our teeth :/ haha

ahhhhhh MONSTER!!

hahahhah!! this picture make us look gross! hahah!

we're the 'lian ti ying' (i dunno what its called in english :/)

the poster of a horror movie.

does peixiu look good in long hair? hmmm.

MACDONALD'S IN SPACE! hahah!

i love them like loads! 7 years and counting <3>

man, i hate the quality of my phone's cam. but i love KAY :D

zhihui and i :D

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DARLING AZH! :DD

will post the rest of the photos when i get them from van (:

Emo emo emo.

I'm so distracted with you around me.

I'm forced to put up a fake front when you're around. that's tiring. extremely tiring. shedded my first tear of heartbreak this year, for you......

have been blogging like daily these days. GOT THE ELLIOT DISEASE! :X hahaha. anyway. today's math lesson sucked to the max. not that the teacher is not nice, but the topic is DRY. MATRICES. and nothing went into my head. yawns. then after midi, i learnt 2 new things. one is DIMINISHED 7TH CHORDS, and the other is 3241. haha. i shall work hard to improve my piano :D then the next thing i want to accomplish is to self play and sing almost any song (: JIAYOU PEIXIU! (:

SEOWHUNG DONT EMO! WE'RE ALL BEHIND YOU! :D

I'm smiling lots today (: hope this smile can last long (:

decided to change font as of now. haha. went to school today wearing an all-black set of clothes. don't know why but just felt like wearing. then at the station, dingchao was the first to comment on my dressing, "why are u so black today? emo ah?" haha. perhaps that was the reason why my day started moody. IDEAS was like -.- then it made my mood change from moody to frustrated. then lunch cant find seat in the canteen. spoil my mood even further.. so bought finger food, and then went on to class to pract keyboard. then the whole keyboard im like.. you can describe me as emo. haha. totally sia..

then luckily, during music theory, the teacher went "whole whole half, whole whole whole half", which at that point in time seemed extremely funny to me. then made me liven up my mood le. hahaha. then started crapping ard like the usual me, laughed alot, played chu-chu train -.- and made plenty of noise. hahaha. then after school, the usual group all had sth on: jasmine and shuyue had strings, rebec cladys and elliot had band. so i stayed till the time's up for them to leave, then i went home alone(EMO!! hahaha). yupp. shall chiong podcast tonight (:



In life, we'll meet tons of people from all over. But how would you know who's the one for you? You wont. That's why life is always full of surprises. You need to go through it to know it, and hurt and pain are expected to be part of the process. But all of it are part and parcel of growing up. Are you too good for me or what? That i'm so afraid of being hurt. Probably you're the cause of my emo..

yes you're right, i should take it slow. one step at a time (:

today supposed to meet at amk hub do to CD at 10 this morning. but i woke up super late, at like 1030. still woke up with a shock thinking that i got school -.- haha. so 'flew' down and 12 bucks waved my wallet goodbye. so i managed to reach there at 1130 odd. then we managed to finish very soon, at about 130. affair had dance so she left at 1230, while the rest of us roamed ard amk hub after that. then wife left, and daughter, elliot and i went to the arcade. I LOVE ARCADING! haha. bishi bashi and house of the dead is like my fav games in there :D but i was very sad. queued 30 mins in exchange for 5 mins of game for house of the dead ): because elliot died so i also died very fast(the game). DAMN SAD LA ): im gonna play it again soon. i dont care. hahaha. today ended like that. and i swear music theory is making me mad!

i think i miss you, because i've been dreaming of you. sighs.
save me from the hurt.

just ended SPSE camp, and now i'm exhausted. didnt seem to enjoy the camp as much as how i expected to enjoy it. probably because i missed the whole amazing race which caused me not to be able to bond well with my group mates. so yeah, by the time i went back from guitar, it was just nice for dinner. blahblahblah. then some night activities which included things like creating a skit, where i acted as a house. oh but one thing is, im glad i didnt choose the wrong instrument, cello, because i love the sound of a cello (: well, whats bad was the night walk. AT 1AM where it was practically pitch dark in SP, we had our nightwalk. and we happily chose the wrong route(the scarier one), at CLS. sighness! we gave up halfway, i felt like my heart could just jump out anytime, and the at workshop, tears gushed out of our eyes, with our hands grabbed tightly and our legs felt like they were stuck on the ground. 'OPERATION CANCELLED', said the i/c of that area. hahah, by then our souls were still lost by the fright. slept at 530am ard there. YAWNS. nothing much for today.

now its my turn to be emo.. you know you're mesmerizing. but why keep letting me see the mesmerizing side of you? you'll have no idea how my heart raced at that moment i saw u there. really felt good with you ard me. but why is it that u wouldn't stay? i enjoyed your company, your console, and your presence. but that was never for long. i know im not the type you'd ever like, or rather any guy would ever like. because i dont have everything that guys want. looks, gentleness, figure, whatsoever, i have none of the above. so in that case, i think i'll choose to keep a distance away from you. dont ever let me see the mesmerizing side of u anymore. i hate the feeling of rejection. probably you'll never know the person im talking about is you, but yes, its you. please stay away. its ironic, but i daren't go close to you anymore. no more heart breaks. i've had enough. thanks...

today started with me feeling quite panicky. the whole keyboard lesson i just couldnt concentrate. probably i was feeling guilty. dunno why im feeling guilty, but it somehow seem we all have a part to play to support each other, especially the closer ones around us. yet i was helpless knowing he's unhappy. i believe that breakdown was after a too piled up emotions these days. im sorry i wasnt of any help. then music theory lesson, the mood became better. i was the last to choose my composer in theory class, so i decided to be special and choose a renaissance composer. which i totally regret now because william byrd is not easy to do. sigh. haha. but had loads of fun laughing at the lyrics of the songs, and dingchao specially picked on those song with weird lyrics. and we all started speaking like we were singing. in technical terms, speaking using head voice with a high pitch. hahaha.

lunch brought the normal him back. at least the guy which we knew. i tried my hardest to communicate more with him. to show him that he's not alone. yupyup, then math was totally slack time for me today, coz i didnt do my work and i will only check the ans after i've completed it. haha. so math was talking with DAUGHTER, and playing games with DC. haha.

then the recording finally came. hmm. its an experienc i wouldnt like to elaborate any further. sorry houston because we didnt manage to video it down! yup. finally, one less burden. :D felt totally relaxed after it (: this photo marks the end of recording. haha

get used to it my friend, DMAT is always there for you. its whether u want to open your heart to allow us to get in (: it isnt easy to mix with a whole bunch a girls i know. so we'll mix in bigger groups with more guys in future (: jiayou!

DMAT, im loving it. <3

THURSDAY, 15 MAY 2008

well i thought the date needs to be emphasized, because many things happened today (: and for that im staying up till now(1am) even though i extremely tired, but i wanted to blog immediately, because i have to say i had a great day today :D surprises just came one after another. first was tues where the clique celebrated for me, then today..

from that time when laopo just disappeared after class and left us doing the project, until her dao behaviour towards me, its all for today's surprise lunch. and everyone else knew about it except me!(duh, what's called a surprise). haha. suppose to jam at 1 but cladys die die say 2. so i suspected.. HMMM. but i thought its only the 6 of us. BUT IN THE END IT TURNED OUT TO BE THE WHOLE DMAT CELEBRATING FOR ME! im touched, honestly. first time in 17 years the whole class celebrate for me, no not whole class, WHOLE COURSE. thanks to LAOPO, AFFAIR AND SEOWHUNG and the rest too! and guess what, i finally got my FAHRENHEIT GONG ZAI! :DDD and also a doraemon pillow and a doraemon bottle, and a cap which i accidentally stained it with the cake ): and also a huge card signed by everyone! :D at the moment when they all sang happy birthday and i guess jonadab was guitaring in the background, my tears gushed up like mad. rahhhh :D i am happy (:

DMAT IS BEING LOVED <3

then after school, went down to ps to meet geok and we went to watch speed racer. and i have to say, RAIN is charismatic (: hahah. nice show, worth to watch! haha. then another surprise came. AZH appeared at the hark 2nd level entrance with a cake. and then happy birthday song again (: and so coincidentally, laoshi didnt come today. so we practically spent our whole singing lesson partying :D they bought for me liquid eyeliner, eyeliner, mascara and eye makeup remover. VERY PRACTICAL GIFTS!! :D hahahah. they we KAY-ed a little. and i really hope geok can write lyrics for the song i composed :D haha. i am happy (:

KAY IS LOVED <3

too sweet stuff makes me feel like pukin :/ ate 3 cakes today. but i loved them! :D

IM LOVING DMAT

I LOVE KAY

I LOVE CLIQUE

I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY :DDD
THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN TO DMAT AND KAY FOR TODAY!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD