whee. the busiest week is over now! can slack abit. but yeah, just abit. because there's so many other stuff to do. just that i dont feel it yet coz the deadlines are still far. haha. and although i spent quite alot of time on the assignments, i wasnt at all satisfied with any of them. MUST, DVPT and performance(this one i didnt really spend time lah :p)

man i spent freakingg 7 bucks on my ezlink card on transport today. where it used to be 10 bucks a week. now its 7 bucks a day. grr. went to TJC to watch Split without zaki today. awesome as usual (: then went to the airport with kay to have lunch at sakae again! SHUSHI! hahah. then went to town walk walk. then came home. supposed to go St Mary's for the confirmation mass. but im still in a tired physical state ): so didnt go. hahah.

shall go back to watching my show. two weeks never watch eh! miracle. haha.

this week really very chiong. after tomorrow i'll be more freeeee :D mannn. what a time to blog. i have absolutely no clue whether if what im doing for dvpt is correct. seems quite out. sigh. dont care alr.

*stares at my drawing, thinking how can any teenager draw so childishly!*

a good way to cure moodiness is to listen to emo songs. 

somehow everything else just makes me pissed 

performance today was screwed up :/ hahaha. but oh wells. then gems also screwed up, so we didnt present today. grr. hahaha. killed too many brain cells these few days.

going out with jasz(quite cool name! haha) feels like holidays. coz its only during the holidays that we hang out like that to slack and talk rubbish. haha. watched night at the museum, which i know i shouldnt be because i got a freaking dvpt presentation on friday and im not at all prepared. haha. so met geok to get some help to do the storyboard, but didnt do anything much eventually, besides deciding on the final storyline! :D hahaha

guitar lesson today was damn late. plus my freaking headache which makes everything worse. haha. so andy offered us a ride home. talking to a matured guy is just different. hahah

sometimes its really not just about what we like to do, but what we need to do. im a person who cannot understand how people can stand doing things they dont like to do, everyday and everytime. but if what you like doesnt not allow you to make a living, are you gonna die just like that? or keep relying on parents to give you what you want. this is a tough route to take, its a tough decision to make..

okay im giving myself a short break to blog, before i start on my gems project.

today's MUST presentation was ARGH. screwed up. i felt i spent quite alot of time and effort on it, but how come that didnt pay off?? i was so absolutely talking rubbish -.- felt damn angry with myself after the presentation. but what to do. grrrrr.

but in one way, im glad its over. now i can focus on other stuff. im gonna list down my plan for the week, which i can hopefully follow:

tonight: complete gems research
practice for performance

wednesday: storyyyboardd

thursday: storyboard+powerpoint

friday: recording of some sort

okay actually it doesnt look like there's much to do, but there is. the storyboard alone kills. and who can tell me what on earth am i supposed to do for gems?? grr. performance tomorrow. excited and scared. hehe

sitting at terminal2 coffee bean for like 5 hours now. not even near completing T_T have 2 more hours or so to chiong. but feels good being able to stay awake (: hahah. jiayou DMAT! music theory and DVPT. chiong! 

photos! whee :D

lightstick party! (:

yolk yolk! :D hahah.

today was a damn long day. okay i mean yesterday. hahaha. 17 hours out. woke up at 6 in the morning to like do the headband thing and make hair and all. then went to school. DVPT was kinda slack, tim gave us time to do our storyboard. hahah. then lunch went to botak jones to eat. freakingg hell waited 50 mins before the food came. grr. hahaha. somemore the weather freakingg hot today. tsk. hahaha. then music theory last lesson with ms tan. SADDDDD ):

haha then after that went down to changi airport to meet the rest to celebrate azh and rice's bday. had korean steamboat. then went to esplanade. cam-whored along the way. then there was this mini surprise for them, made up of lightsticks :D hahah. then supper at 7atenine. kinda not the right mood and the right place. somehow. but oh wells.

im damn tired now, upload photos tomorrow. HOPE THEY LIKED THE SURPRISE! :D

pek chek pek chek! all my plans are screwed up. just because theory presentation is being pushed to next week. it's supposed to be a good thing, but no i dont think so ): supposed to meet clarice shopping, and need to do some other stuff, but cancelled everything just to do the research. somemore this morning pon just to try to do more research. then now suddenly push -.- pissssssssssed. 

then now next week gonna be so busy, screw it. 

okay i cannot tahan. i dunno how people manage to stay up so late at night or even not sleep to do work. i find it damn hard man. supposed to stay up to do research. but everything else is giving me problems. like my mac overworking and the fan running so fast. then dunno why everything is screwed. im more or less done with classical history now. gonna work on composers tomorrow. i decided not to torture myself. goodnight.




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something seems to be wrong with me today. im abnomally tired. like for no reason. slept quite early last night, so no reason to be so tired. but ya i am. met clarice in the morning for breakfast, the standard routine every week. hahah. midi now is like >_<>

gosh, lotsa work to complete. music theory is priority now. presentation on friday, damn stress lah. then there's new midi assignment plus undone work piled up, and then heard that need to complete storyboard by next fri for DVPT. and i still wanna rush to record the song. AHHH. going crazy. hahaha. need to start to make full use of time. 

hahah primary school "gang" everyone's attached! how cool's that :DD haha left with me now. quite sad, but no, somehow im not too affected by that :D hahah. 

ooohoo. the party is over! and actually i thought what my friends did for me was more awesome than the party itself :D and i think it was more of a "Most Kiddish Eighteenth Party" than a "Gangster Party" hahah. because i received a total of 4 doraemon-related gifts and plus my 3 doraemon cakes. the theme should have been Doraemon la. hahaha.

thanks to all who came :D and i have damn little photos with me now ):

MI PAE 08 (:

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tuition! (:

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stc (:

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DMAT (:

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i love you allll! :DDDDD

ahaha my first birthday present for the year :D okay fine actually not really counted. coz i asked for it and we got it together. hahah. 25 bucks in total spent to catch a doraemon! i only paid 10 luh. hahah. we seriously damn high okay. coz there were 3 times it almost dropped out but didnt. damn pek chek. haha. then finally at our 25th coin, the doraemon got threw out :DDD scream like mad please. damn high. hahah.

THANKEW! :D

i could have fell deeper.
bur really thanks for being an asshole.
that saved me.

just realised today seem to be a good day. everything went well :D

first was presenting for midi. actually that was damn suay like seriously. out of everyone i kena. haha. but the i was QUITE complimented by people around for that 1:30 piece i created. thanks milli and zaki :D gave me that confidence boost. hahah. oh then it was performance. things turned out much better than i expected. although not like how we planned, but it went well and smooth. haha. complimented by spicer! (at least i thought it was a compliment :p ) haha.

then vocal lesson. songs that we presented to laoshi were done pretty well. esp 我不是你想象那么勇敢. the piano part i felt i did it emo enough :D and azh and geok's vocals were :D hahaha. power sia. kay kay kay, chiong chiong chiong! (:

haha its rare that school ended so early yesterday. but everyone had like something on so it was only left with wendy, shuyue and me in the end. didnt know what to do, wanted to watch movie. but i wasnt willing to spend 8 bucks on wolverine. so didnt watch. in the end went to bugis, and this new place, iluma. walked around, then went to eat apple strudel! supposed to eat with milli they all but they not free ): so yeah. hahah. then went to play arcade and blah. so at the end was too tired and decided to go home. didnt want to take 960 from bugis coz it'll be so crowded. so took train to city hall to change bus. in the end took 171 which took me 1.5 hours to get home =.= grr. hahaha. still havent got mother's day gift. damn.

took photos for dvpt. photos!

at the rooftop taking pictures!

it ain't good being injured ): hahaha

what tim considered as our best picture. i didnt take it though :p haha

bird's eye view over dover (:

whee. retarded people with my retarded idea to go to guys' toilet :p hahaha

DORAEMON! :D

APPLE STRUDEL! :D

hahah its been long since i uploaded pictures. whee (:

am in fc5 rotting now. supposed to be doing music theory research, but apparently i have absolutely no mood. yeahh, and here i'm again talking about mood. i'm too spoilt. i do things as and when i wish to, and don't do just because i simply don't feel like it. i've been like that since young. i get almost everything i want. but never knew how to treasure. until recently when i found out how insecured i am. life is something so frail. start learning to treasure before you regret when you lose people around you. 

and i hesistated to walk out of the house all in black. and when i did, something bad really happened, as i predicted -.- suay. 

and i hate rehearsal/practice sessions with no slightest improvement; those are as good as redundant.


im not angry at anyone in particular. if there has to be, it can only be me myself. sighs.


okay and i came home early wanting to complete more work, but i ended up napping till now. which leaves me with not much time and mood to do work. grr.

play music because you enjoy it. if you're struggling to feel enjoyment, think twice about whether to continue doing it.

and so the long weekend is coming to an end. hahah. did nothing productive in particular. grrr. went to ride my new bike this morning. cycled around the park, then went to buy breakfast. hahah. quite troublesome though. gotta avoid the people walking and then carry my breakfast while cycling because i dont have a basket -.- hahah.

work's piling up. i only have freaking 1:45 mins for midi now. i think this is quite hard for me, like using so much brain juice to think of what to add. but others can just keep doing and doing, like i think zaki even got 9 mins?? omgg. hahah. oh and music theory test..screwed luh. sigh. hahaha. ohhhhh and guess what? its MAY now! :DD hahahah.




and i still remember,
happy birthday,
in advance.