just ended SPSE camp, and now i'm exhausted. didnt seem to enjoy the camp as much as how i expected to enjoy it. probably because i missed the whole amazing race which caused me not to be able to bond well with my group mates. so yeah, by the time i went back from guitar, it was just nice for dinner. blahblahblah. then some night activities which included things like creating a skit, where i acted as a house. oh but one thing is, im glad i didnt choose the wrong instrument, cello, because i love the sound of a cello (: well, whats bad was the night walk. AT 1AM where it was practically pitch dark in SP, we had our nightwalk. and we happily chose the wrong route(the scarier one), at CLS. sighness! we gave up halfway, i felt like my heart could just jump out anytime, and the at workshop, tears gushed out of our eyes, with our hands grabbed tightly and our legs felt like they were stuck on the ground. 'OPERATION CANCELLED', said the i/c of that area. hahah, by then our souls were still lost by the fright. slept at 530am ard there. YAWNS. nothing much for today.

now its my turn to be emo.. you know you're mesmerizing. but why keep letting me see the mesmerizing side of you? you'll have no idea how my heart raced at that moment i saw u there. really felt good with you ard me. but why is it that u wouldn't stay? i enjoyed your company, your console, and your presence. but that was never for long. i know im not the type you'd ever like, or rather any guy would ever like. because i dont have everything that guys want. looks, gentleness, figure, whatsoever, i have none of the above. so in that case, i think i'll choose to keep a distance away from you. dont ever let me see the mesmerizing side of u anymore. i hate the feeling of rejection. probably you'll never know the person im talking about is you, but yes, its you. please stay away. its ironic, but i daren't go close to you anymore. no more heart breaks. i've had enough. thanks...