today is damn freaking screwed up. one by one my friends are all falling sick. not long after seowhung and jon recovered, amelia fell sick. and now when amelia is just about to recover, zaki is falling sick. and still got jasmine and clarice also fell sick for quite long time. all falling sick. shit.

and zaki said that things will probably change during the China trip. please dont let us fall apart. i absolutely hate changes in life. especially when it comes to friendship..

im already trying my best to find a balance. why is it still so fucked up?

china trip's almost confirmed (: just the air tickets now.  haha. i guess now its not the country that matters anymore, but the company :D hahaha. 

looking forward to it, hope it'll be fun! hehe

man i think i lost so much inspiration due to not penning them down because i dont have pen and paper in the toilet, and alot of my inspirations come from the toilet! grr. hahaha

okay peixiu you're left with two days to complete your arrangement, stop dragging! jiayou! (:

oh and i NEED to mention this. saw damn cute hamsters at lot 1. HAVE YOU SEEN 6 FREAKING HAMSTERS FIGHTING FOR TWO EXERCISE WHEELS AND ALL OF THEM ARE ON THE WHEELS RUNNING ON TOP AND OVER EACH OTHER??!? freaking classic and funny i tell you. should have videoed it. hahahaha :D:D

oh my tian im so happy. bestfriend is back! i so want a meetup. but how :( busy busy busy. 

ooohoo. hahah. i still love the original DCW (: not that i dislike Pets Ceng, but DCW with Jiro is like the ultimate combination! hahah. 

a damn boring day at home today. woke up and ate lunch and then went back to nap. really damn sian. hahaha.

yesterday had Keele's farewell party, the entire dmat was there, supposedly. but somehow it seems that the year ones are always the largest group. reminds me of last year, where we always moved around in large groups and ever enthu for all the events. now the spirit kinda died down.. but oh wells. haha. celebrated clarice's belated birthday at night. had fun! but the price was awfully scary. sigh. broke broke broke. haha grr.

7atenine yesterday with JAYSZ was awesome! :D

today's really busy and tiring, but absolutely fruitful (: haha. remt in the morning was rather slack for me (was doing my arrangement instead :/ ) haha. then a sweaty and disgraceful afternoon shooting video for shuyue and cladys. i have concluded that it is tough to act as a fat woman! hahaha. then a rushing recording session with amelia for my bass, and shuyue's boyfriend for drums. things kinda screwed up because the bass guitar was kinda spoilt and the drums in studio C werent good enough so we had to shift the drums. chiong chiong chiong like mad. luckily finished what i need to today (: hahaha. thanks sessionists!

really feel damn fulfilling today! although i was like totally disconnected with the world because i didnt really have the time to check my phone which was in my bag away from me. and i realised i didnt have proper food today. potato croquette for lunch, chee kueh for dinner and nuggets for like almost supper. but oh my i love this fulfilling feeling at the end of the day (: makes me feel so accomplished. AWESOME! :D

im damn tired now. just finished filming for shuyue, and perspired like mad. acting like a fat lady is tough and WARM! hahaha. but i think the final video's gonna be funny. with my totally unglam side. hahaha. later 4 more hours of recording. exhausted :/

yesterday was really awesome. hahaha okay i just cant stop repeating myself -.- i felt like a child. whining and being "deh" the whole day. hahah. i loveeee the otters and the goats. so disgustingly cute :D hahaha. happy 5th month JAYSZ!

okay now i need to really crack my brain to think of how to save money. for GSS and my allowance to japan (or maybe china, which i'm now quite reluctant..) but then so many things coming :( birthdays and all. grrr. hahaha. money money, and lobang? hahaha

to the zoo to the zoo to the zooooo with JAYSZ and see yang meh mehs and monkeys and giraffes and horses and polar bears and everything else! awesomeeee. hahah. havent been there for like 4 years. the only thing that's making me reluctant is moneyyyy. sighh.

but i still think its gonna be fun (:

going to sleep now and not gonna care about my arrangement temporarily. pisses me off. haha. goodnight!

this song is so good (: emo tune, touching MV. argh :D

他走了 我的燈一直亮著
門關緊了　但眼淚不會鎖
該好了　可是心　還是痛的
說過了　幾千次算了
又想像　可能會復合
我表面　似乎痊愈了
某部份卻像殘廢了

又圓了　的月亮
照亮我　隱藏 的掘強
提醒我　去化妆 
把以後　活得更漂亮
又圓了　的月亮
說改變　會帶來成長
旋轉的　地球上
沒有人　能不動站在一個地方

夢醒了　像旅行　都結束了
紀念品呢　誰粗心　弄掉了
到哪了 做什麼　是否記得
相機裡 兩個人鬧著
讓微笑 美過了夜色
沒有他 以為該靜默
但世界一樣在唱歌

又圓了　的月亮
照亮我　隱藏 的掘強
提醒我　去化妆 
把以後　活得更漂亮
又圓了　的月亮
說改變　會帶來成長
旋轉的　地球上
肯轉身 總有新故事值得盼望

沒有他 以為該靜默
但世界一樣在唱歌
又圓了　的月亮
照亮我　隱藏 的掘強
提醒我　去化妆 
把以後　活得更漂亮
又圓了　的月亮
說改變　會帶來成長
旋轉的　地球上
肯轉身 總有新故事值得盼望
用原諒
去遺忘

its really an enjoyment when you can play and sing your favourite songs (: im feeling happy because i just did that :D

whee im honestly passionate about guitar all of a sudden. so fun. hahaha. play it more often than last time (: haha. went for music express semis today, hmm some songs were really good, but some were just alright. haha. but guess im not quite in the position to judge :O haha. laoshi performed today! he is soo awesome :D

performance class tomorrow. i dread playing the clarinet. firstly because of freaking transposing issues, secondly because Nicola stresses me out (i secretly hopes she wont be there. omg im so freaking mean). grr. hahaha

lots of motivational stuff these few days. its like telling me "no you cannot give up on your dream" when i was feeling unstable and demoralised. Leon's inspiring words, laoshi's help and attitude towards music, DCW's never-say-die spirit and support by friends, these are things that kept me going. and now moving (:

now im gonna change my mindset. the word "FAIL" shall fucking get out of my dictionary. i want to be a performer, i will be a performer. jiayou! :D

okay and now, how the hell do you freakingg use the score editor in Logic?!

here's a little secret i hope no stcband peeps find out. I MISS STCBAND 2004! :O and the clarinet section. gahh.

boost boost boost!

lets wait and see if we're gonna make it. watch out hor! :D

thats the spirit!