am i kinda overestimating my abilities?
i keep telling myself i can do this, and i really want to do this. but the stress level is up to my throat, now i cant even focus and plan properly what to do and not. i know emotionally im kinda screwed.
and so glad for the past 3 sessions i had so much help. zhihui, miao, geok, seowhung etc.. so thankful (: but argh. i cant cope with this alone. but these guys are not obliged to help me because it's not their marks blah blah blah. oh goodness, this thing is killing me, again.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
i just finished editing the first scene of my music video today :D but how uh, the video quality sucks. or rather, i think i used the wrong setting but i checked soo many times and it shouldnt go wrong! sighh. then now the whole first scene is like line line line whenever they move :( how to solve that! arghhh.
i'm still not feeling very convinced that i should be using a mini DV cam for POD, although when Josh from comtech asked me "what is it that the V1P can do and the SR11 cannot?" all i can answer is quality difference, but i dont know how to explain and i dont know what exactly is the difference, i just know it's.. different. how like that :(
i really need the V1P.. the external hard disk camera btw. whyyyy dont let us useeeee! :(
i'm still not feeling very convinced that i should be using a mini DV cam for POD, although when Josh from comtech asked me "what is it that the V1P can do and the SR11 cannot?" all i can answer is quality difference, but i dont know how to explain and i dont know what exactly is the difference, i just know it's.. different. how like that :(
i really need the V1P.. the external hard disk camera btw. whyyyy dont let us useeeee! :(
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
recently, i've been seeing people getting so emo/depressed/unhappy/lonely.. whatever. and it's so scary that they don't show it on the surface. i dont recall feelings being so complicated, just a few years back. it was all just, happy is happy, sad is sad. simple as that. but now, the two sides that people are showing gets so overwhelming and unbelievable.
hahah, and you know what the ironic thing is, i am exactly like that too.
i dislike reading blog posts/fb status/twitter updates of people whom i think i am really close to and realize that i dont actually know what they are talking about, why they're sad, what happened to them, etc. not that im such a kaypo but, previously without all these technology stuff, it was just simply sending an sms "hey, im not really feeling good today, wanna hangout?"
i'm seeing a major difference between myself virtually and in real life.
and oh, i've never been this self conscious in my life, it was ever since that day, somehow. i dont dare to really be myself anymore. i feel like the real me is so.. bitchy. argh fuck it.
this is just a summary of what i am thinking now. everything's in a mess...
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
phew, feeling much better now after submitting remt yesterday (: have some time to relax now!
had a "field trip" today, to asian civilisation museum. saw groups primary school kids there, reminds me of how we used to be so excited to go for excursions last time. so fun. hahaha. then watched toy story 3! it's such a nice and touching storyyyy (: stupid purple bear. haha
and tomorrow gonna start filming for pod. WOOHOO im kinda excited. i hope everything's gonna turn out well :D
had a "field trip" today, to asian civilisation museum. saw groups primary school kids there, reminds me of how we used to be so excited to go for excursions last time. so fun. hahaha. then watched toy story 3! it's such a nice and touching storyyyy (: stupid purple bear. haha
and tomorrow gonna start filming for pod. WOOHOO im kinda excited. i hope everything's gonna turn out well :D
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
TGIF!
i would think this week is the craziest week in my whole life. only three hours of sleep a night since sunday. other than that it's just chiong chiong chiong. so happy it's friday. hahaha.
geok's bro's 21st bday party tomorrow. gonna play a set with kay, so long havent performed with them :DD hahaha. think it's gonna be fun fun fun!! and yup, cant do any work tmr :/
REMT dued on monday. then i wanna focus on POD already. now still considering whether to change male lead. hmm. but it's gonna be chiongster three weeks. filming, editing, filming editing, mixing, filming, blah blah blah. arghhh still damn lack of sleep. sighhh
i'm becoming so self conscious. i'm not being myself. i'm not a perfect person.
i would think this week is the craziest week in my whole life. only three hours of sleep a night since sunday. other than that it's just chiong chiong chiong. so happy it's friday. hahaha.
geok's bro's 21st bday party tomorrow. gonna play a set with kay, so long havent performed with them :DD hahaha. think it's gonna be fun fun fun!! and yup, cant do any work tmr :/
REMT dued on monday. then i wanna focus on POD already. now still considering whether to change male lead. hmm. but it's gonna be chiongster three weeks. filming, editing, filming editing, mixing, filming, blah blah blah. arghhh still damn lack of sleep. sighhh
i'm becoming so self conscious. i'm not being myself. i'm not a perfect person.
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