am i kinda overestimating my abilities?

i keep telling myself i can do this, and i really want to do this. but the stress level is up to my throat, now i cant even focus and plan properly what to do and not. i know emotionally im kinda screwed.

and so glad for the past 3 sessions i had so much help. zhihui, miao, geok, seowhung etc.. so thankful (: but argh. i cant cope with this alone. but these guys are not obliged to help me because it's not their marks blah blah blah. oh goodness, this thing is killing me, again.