i'm beginning to hate filming, like seriously. where did that enthusiasm and motivation go from last sem go to? now after every session i end up like zombie and like totally drained. and im totally not in a mood to do work now which is bad because i only have less than a week left.

and i love shushi! :D ate the most shiok Ichiban yesterday at AMK hub. the food there is like the freshest of all the branches! hahaha. and Ishi Mura is awwwwwhsum! hahah. i need a second time there soon. and third, fouth, fifth. hahaah.

yeepeixiuuuu, start work now or you'll be in hell the next few days.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

ain't in good condition. woke up with 2 red swelling eyes and runny nose, and my head feels damn heavy. feeling really lethargic too. and i cannot stop worrying about how im gonna finish ALL my work by the end of holidays dammit :( what a christmas. hahaha. argh

so christmas eve, same routine. Aunty Shirley's house for xmas party in the afternoon. then dinner with parents, and then went for midnight mass. by the time midnight mass ended was about 130am. so not wanting to pay midnight surcharge in a cab, we decided to walk to bukit panjang plaza for supper. haha. Mcspicy at 3am in the morning. EFF EHH TEE seriously :( and later on, going aunt's house for dinner. yupp thats for xmas this year.

2 steamboats for next week seems like the plan. plus our seemingly never ending filming and tons of work to complete, yes, TONS. still need to go for a concert for REMT assignment, which i havent found one to go for. SEI loh.

and im back from chalet. and took a long nap. shiok only :D haha.

didnt manage to take much pictures though :( and omg, we overspent and overbought like siao. SOOOO much leftovers, like seriously. i dont even wanna think of the amount that we threw away :/ and i dare say that African kids have no food.

the night was quite good. played indian poker, "I have never", and truth or drink. and the truth or drink progressed into a heart2heart session, which was damn awhsum. i've never spoken like that with this group of people before, like together. it feels good when you can like really set your mind free and talk about everything, because i trust that whatever is said in the room stays in the room. but too bad, once that feeling is over, cant pour out anymore. and thats when we all zzzz. hahahah

omg omg omg. i cant believe performance is tomorrow and we havent prepared a shit up till now. wont be until tomorrow itself. crosses fingers and hopes everything will go well! :/

dragged myself to school this morning to reborrow the equipments, and supposedly recording but.. yup. haha then after that went to shop for xmas gifts, yup myself. so shiok walk all around no need care about others :P hahaha. and i came up with rubbisology: Shopping is a skill that requires Inspiration, too (: hahaha. but anyways, damn happifying to like find stuff in big packs and cheaper than prices outside. HAHA damn aunty. but oh wells.

today im gonna spend the rest of the day working on xmas pressieeees! not gonna care about anything else, not gonna do work and stress myself out.. :p choosing christmans over work.. obviously im not getting my priorities right. but who cares? im HAPPY (: hehehe

hope tomorrow will turn out fun! :D okay but first, lets get some sleep before anything else..

wah i seriously seriously need to like have a good rest. probably after this saturday then i will take one day and like really just sleep and nua at home. then after that still must chiong work. alot alot alot of work :(

so yesterday was recording in the morning, filming in the afternoon, vocal lesson at night and then went chalet. sounds chiong enough right. hahaha. annual tuition chalet, as usual was like a catching up chalet for us. haha and to bond with the kids so that christmas party wont be awkward. this time round chalet at ECP, quite an inconvenient place uh i realised :/ macs is like 15 min walk away, and when you're like dead beat you really wish you didn't have to drag yourself all the way there.. and today walked to parkway parade to buy food for bbq.. hahaha. oh wells.

and i must must must mention this. i think laoshi's band is damn awesome. acapella group who makes use of distortion pedals on voices. totally cool concept. hahaha. quite sure it's gonna be a new thing is the chinese scene :D laoshi is awesome :D so is their band named MICAPPELA. check out their webbie http://www.micappella.com/

and i am seriously lost now. its like i know what i want but i dont know how to express it and get it. actually since last time, i've been over-estimating what i can do, and because of that i unconsciously gave trouble to people around me. from the first DVPT assignment, Noise, and now the current MV we have to do as well. so pissed at myself. i should stop overdoing things beyond my limits. but oh wells.

on a brighter note, last night was goooooood (: our postponed PJ PARTAYYY since i think june? hahaha. actually it wasnt specially planned for that, supposed to be preparation for xmas :D so fun. hahahaha. hope people will like the end product! (: i wished i could stay at angchee's house longer. working on stuff together the whole night while listening to music and chatting, go to sleep in the morning on the upper deck bed, get woken up by them a few hours later and then sing sing sing together the moment we wake up.. (: sweet sweet sweet! hahah. really love them *shy* hehe

hahah best photo of the night :D

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tomorrow. i dont wanna think about tomorrow. arrangement's supposed to be done by tomorrow to record vocals but apparently it doesn't seem to be ready. how to record vocals like that? and after recording got filming. after that lesson. then after that tuition chalet. omg longgg day. but excited for tuition chalet though (:

CMCC annual performance auditions today! hahaha first time judging an audition. quite fun. heard 33 people sing today. many of them have like quite nice woiiiice! haha. and i was quite impressed by one of the CMCC senior who graduated years ago, i think his name is Ming Wei? haha. his comments were constructive and like quite detailed, techniques and feel wise. of course cannot beat laoshi but yeahh i was quite impressed. wonder if the 2004 batch CMCC were all of that standard? awesome eh :D hahaha. 6 hours felt like it passed damn fast. a good 6 hours!

cant quite wait to perform with them. should be quite an experience. it's gonna be tough on seowhung though, planning will surely be beeeech. jiayou darlingg (: hahaha

CONQUER THE STAGE, SHOW THAT YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES (:

im quite keen to get a new keyboard, because im kinda not satisfied with my current PSR E403.

and actually i want an 88 weighted keys one, but to think about it i might as well get a new piano and dump this one i have now which is lao kok kok. hahaha. so the next i have in mind is the Korg X50, for $790 during the xmas sale. one of main reason is of course because im familiar with it, rather than getting a brand new one which i dont know which is actually better. and so far the X50 has quite nice sounds and its portable, i would even think it's much lighter than my current one now. so bringing it out wouldnt be so tough.

then again, $790. quite high end for a keyboard uh. but its actual price is $1130. so.. I DONT KNOW! :(

today was like kinda fruitful, except for the fact that we skipped dvpt :p hahaha. went to North Vista Sec this morning to check out the place to film a piano. after that went to hougang mall for lunch and planned our schedules. then after that we went to Keppel Bay, and that place is omg :D:D:D hahaha. it was a really longgg walk in to the place but the scenery there made that all worth it (: haha then went to esplanade also but the feel's kinda similar to keppel bay so. hahaha.

nice leh (:

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because the sun was soooo bright it doesnt look as nice in the picture ):

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nice nice nice nice (: haha. hope we can get the permission to film there! wah and omg. i think the 3 weeks break will not be a break at all. next week is like fully packed: recording, filming, auditions and chalets. ooohoo. quite excited to work on stuff but i think the process will be like T_T hahaha. just going to the different places to check things out already got me drained today. yawns. hahah

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oh, and i really really miss them.

it's stupid because i still see them everyday

but it's just not the same anymore

if we were to take this picture again, i bet our expressions will no longer be the same.

i hate the fact i cant sustain a conversation with anyone, unless they initiate it. why the fuck is it so difficult for me to talk more?

its like the "i want to talk to you but i've got nothing to say at all" kinda feeling. so crap.

wooh. today's over! too busy with it for the past few weeks. especially the last one. planning stuff here and there, expecting changes everyday. one week ago the song wasnt even decided on, and today on stage was the first and the last time the entire 7 piece band played together. hahaha.

i would say it wasn't tooooo bad, besides that i forgot to freaking on the mic and i thought there was a problem with it -.- throw face maximum. luckily geok reminded me in the middle of the song so i had chance to turn it on for the second part of it. hahaha. and the theme song was a total mess. but i guess it isn't a big deal because no one can really hear anyway, i guess. hahaha. but was alright, nevous level wasn't too high, i think because they too zai already so i feel secured enough (: yupp and that was about it, i just know im physically drained by now.

and now that this is over, i just realisd there's many other things to do and catch up with. school work especially.

MUST: too much work piled up from last time to catch up with. xmas choral arrangement's eggciting!
MIDI: like omg who can save me
DVPT: need to start filming scenes next week but need people :( recording and arrangement still incomplete
Perf/REMT: how to sing bossa and make it sound swee swee?
XQRJ/Impresario: another time of failure is demoralising, can i take it, or do i have to?

oh my, so much to be completed. but oh wells. kinda excited to do most of it, except probably MIDI :p hahaha. and im back to the feel like blogging mood everyday. hehehe alright today was awfully long. gonna sleep!

and im frigginggggg out for tomorrow. because practice was seriously screwed up today. lyrics was a total mess, harmonising was pitchy shit, and it was the last practice before the real thing. and guess what, we never had a full band practice so far, and the first time will be on stage -.- omgomgomg. cold sweat. please i need a miracle now, let tomorrow be awesome.. :(

and today was a seriously long 6 hours recording vocals. im sorry, i dont sound happy enough to sing their happy song, in the end drag sooo long :( then have to finish up another day. really sorry! and damn damn tired by now.

tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. !@#$%^&(*&^%$#@~!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!

wooh and everyone's going overseas. angchee left to Bali today. chris leaving for Japan tomorrow. mama going back to Malaysia tomorrow also.

physically drained now. recording today for DVPT. lotsa screwups in the studio and the drums were badly out of tune. so dragged quite long and didnt finish what we had to :( but feels good! havent had recording until late at night for quite long. haha.

its gonna be over this week! don't think next week will be as chiong (:

hey guys if you happen to be reading this,

i promise this will be all, at least for now and in the near future. after this week it'll be over. knew this was gonna come. thanks and sorry once again!

(wah sialah damn paiseh like seriously)

你总是心太软

心太软

把所有问题都自己扛

hahahah i should dedicate this song to myself! :P woots. midi midi midi :(

i seriously, secretly, hope that the rabbits will mia for the show. even though we're only a back up, so thats not something i should be happy about.. but i really want the opportunity. i mean, it has been my dream.

although now we'll still be able to do it but yeahh, with alot of restrictions. rabbits, mia can? give us a chance. okay shit i sound desperate. hahahaha. okay now gonna do BUMS. 1000 words, here i come!

its one week to the performace and the song hasnt been decided yet. crapppp. and i've got tons of undone work and they're piling up like seriously.

1. BUMS, due on the coming monday! :(
2. DVPT song's arrangement, need to get it done for recording next thurs/fri
3. DVPT location permit/photographs/filming of the first few scenes
4. MIDI, im so dead for this one. i have not started a shit T_T
5. MUST, incompleted worksheets and textbook questions to do

on top of that, holiday assignments are also out already. interesting stuff to do, but will need lots of time. and stuff besides school work, that i want to do, also requires TIME. (hahahah probably in the previous few blog posts i was complaining that damn slack, now its busy to the max. i secretly like that feeling, feels more productive :p secretly, secretly)

on a brighter note, went shopping with KAY yesterday. angzhiii had to choose her prom dress. hahaha. and i happily bought 2 clothes and leggings :DD plus a frolick! hahaha. okay damn im broke. so im gonna work for my dad again today, and attempt to do some music theory there. hahaha. BYE!

hahaha yayy i love how my tuition group works. or should i say ex tuition group. hahaha. so it was aunty shirley's birthday on wed :D went back to her place and had zi char for dinner together. updated each other of our lives, and feels damn good laughing at jokes we used to make years ago. hahaha. what cornflakes overpopulating and need to migrate and all that rubbish while we were studying overnight for our human geog paper. memories :D xmas xmas xmas party!

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hahaha. and yesterday was a really long day. lesson started at 8, and then had final rehearsal for Escapade. felt really busy for the first time, since jas and i are now doing the video/slideshow instead of the sound crew. haha. everything ended at 1015 when it was supposed to end by 8 plus. damn tired. hahaha. hope everything will turn out well on sat! scaryyy. hahaha

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today got recording for 883 again. must must must accomplish something today! 

look at me
you may think you see who i really am
but you'll never know me
everyday
it's as if i play a part

now i see
if i wear a mask i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart

who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me
when will my reflection show
who i am inside

i am now
in a world where i have to hide my heart
and what i believe in

but somehow
i will show the world what's inside my heart
and be loved for who i am

who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me
why is my reflection someone i dont know

must i pretend that i'm someone else for all time
when will my reflection show
who i am inside

there's a heart that must be free to fly
that burns with a need to know the reason why

why must we all conceal
what we think
how we feel
must there be a secret me
i'm forced to hide
i wont pretend that im someone else
for all time
when will my reflection show
who i am inside

i fell in love with this song when i watch Mulan years back and i was so young then. totally love the lyrics. as in for this Christina Aguilera version one.

from tomorrow onwards, im gonna try my best, to be who i truly am. i want to find back my true self. dont wanna do things i dont usually do, say things i dont usually say, and act like someone that im not. its not gonna be easy because reality is cruel. but i'll try. im sick and tired of acting like another person just to favour people. i unknowingly became like that some time early this year or last year.. and only found out recently. sad to know but yeah :(

p.s. its really quite awesome when you can sing a song in your head and type the lyrics out word by word, and when that song expresses how you feel exactly at that moment (:

woohoo. i am a chiongster fan today. supposed to meet clarice at 6am but woke up a little late. so we reached causeway point at 7 instead. queued for 6 hours plus just for that 20s on stage to see them :( and this year somehow they didnt allow people to shake hands with them i dont know why! angry.. sigh. cant wait for the next S.H.E concert!

an early and tired morning

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overcrowded causeway point. haha

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so after that, went down to IMM for Jam's session. i was damn shocked when i reached there. the session starts at 7pm and when we reached at 5pm we managed to get to the first row! like omg omg omg damn happy. hahaha. got to see him so clearly :D AND SHOOK HIS HANDS :D his grip was really tight, happy happy! hahahaha. damn high man.

i've never been so close to the stage in an autograph session :D

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JAM JAM :D

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and im seriously damn damn tired now already. still got auditions tomorrow. honestly really scared. cant stop worrying about it today. pray everything will go well.

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some pictures from hit award! (:

and oh my she's damn damn cute. love zhang yun jing! :D lala's voice awesome!

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MLB (: superband's first champion. support local music! nic! :D

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Jam again! :D:D:D

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mayday :)

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and of course, S.H.E ftw! love them ttm. concert soon please! :D

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singapore hit award 2009 :D

okay havent been blogging for a long time. no mood to blog :( haha

and this week was like damn slack. lessons dont feel like lessons at all. monday helped out at pasir ris crest sec for the music fiesta. and the students there seriously damn lucky. 6 BIG music rooms with guitars, keyboards, drums, piano and what not, and they have A MAC LAB. which secondary school provides that?! hahaha. so awesome can. tuesday went to school for DVPT, then followed zaki to see guitars with daniel. wed met clarice finally! spent alot on food again T_T haha. yesterday world day. helped out in rehearsal. and today! JIN QU JIANG! :D hope its gonna be awesome! hahaha. gonna see many many good singers! hehehe

and chiongster weekend coming up. S.H.E and Jam's autograph session tomorrow. i love going for them once in a while, fun! and memories of the past.. (: hahaha. then sunday got audition which i dont know details at all, screwed up sia -.-

alright gotta go! :D

hmm i seriously think this semester damn slack. or maybe its just the first two weeks. haha. ending school quite early almost everyday. then got nothing to do after school. sucks eh this kinda feeling -.- hahah.

so today after school, was trying hard enough to find stuff to do because i didnt feel like going home. so ended up going to plan lan with the guys. but i didnt play luh. haha. damn manly group today, like a dmat guys' outing. haha.

and im hating perf class. because of BUGS. like omg. i'd rather play scales and more scales, than the BUGS exercise. and omg tmr 3 hours. grr. hahahaha. and what's after school tomorrow? sian to even think. hahah. i think its after going to harbin that i got used to like going out after lesson kinda thing, :/ hahaha

and im gonna cut my hair real soon, really. hahaha

photos! its been some time since i posted photos on my blog! haha

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picnic at sentosa with JAYSZ

the guys having fun in the water, i couldnt go down :( so i was the photographer. haha

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zaki took out his pants... hahaha

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milli with her artwork :D

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a friday with KAY (:

oh my flabby arms :(

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i think im cutting my hair soon. although i tried very hard to keep telling myself to stop cutting, but its really getting damn messy, long, thick and irritating :( sigh sigh, no more money already!

had seoul garden for lunch today with KAY (: nice nice. haha. then went to hark for practice. so chiong can, 4 hours of practice :D tried new stuff again! haha. today's another longggg day. im so tired now. haha

im really pinning high hopes on this, and i dont want to be disappointed

over the years

i stepped out of many people's lives

and became part of others'

but i guess that's just how time changes things

i love being with the people i hang out with now

and also miss the people i used to hang out with

wah im quite shock Glow found out about Noise singapore and he saw my picture in there -.- hahaha. he wants to try and be the mentor for next batch? not too sure. hahaha. but oh wells. i think BUMS in 2011 is more condusive. i seem to be able to pay attention more than in 44 :D hahaha.

and ohh my. performance class is grrrr. struggling to keep myself hanging in there. haha. 3 hours is extremely long if we dont have any performances to practice for :/ hahaha.

christmas christmas hurry come! love christmas :D sigh, someone bring me carolling next year? haha

first day of school was longgg. hahah okay thats not exactly school. lesson ended at 4, and then waited for geok and zhihui to come over to SP for practice. haha. and it was a good day too! results for some subjects are out :) hahaha. and i love how we're progressing for practice, shiok :D 

hmm now i need to decide whether to play keyboard or clarinet for performance assessment at the end of the semester. sigh. im definitely much more confident at keyboard but... it'll be i wont be playing my clarinet anymore, which sucks :( sigh. 

and i dont get why people always think our course is a very slack course. i mean i think its very unfair to think so. because its really not easy to do well. hahaha although its harder for maybe like business or science students to score in exams, but at least its almost certain that they'll be able to find a stable job in future. what about music students? everything is a huge question mark. nothing assures us that we'll definitely get a job in the industry. and even you get the job, how hard is it to make big money with it. haha. its really unfair to say DMAT is damn slack and relaxed. hahaha, i may seem like im siding my own course, i would say its true. 

hahah and DVPT results just came out, hard work did pay off :D:D:D haha. and im so looking forward to start on the next assignment. MUSIC VIDEO :D hahaha. wheeeee!

haha oh my i didnt know today was Deepavali. or rather yesterday. i even thought it was unbelievable -.- because the calender did not state, and i didnt notice any people celebrating Deepavali around. okay but now that Hark's closed and zhihui saw many Indians in festive/traditional costumes, cannot argue already. hahaha

and so because hark is closed, venue for practice changes. now waiting for them to come to my house. and welcome chris, being the first guy in my house, except my father. hahaha. hope my mother doesnt nag too much about that :/


and hey, im sorry for that lack of trust. im overly worried and i know that well enough..

wah it was a bad choice to have mcspicy before lesson that day, and now my throat hurts :( and my head was like exploding last night and this morning. i thought im falling sick but luckily now im feeling better so.. (:

sigh 3 more days to school reopen. still not ready for that. somemore lesson's early in the morning everyday except monday. yawns. hahaha.

hehe, just packed up my study desk yesterday, now neat and tidy :D hahaha. going to meet yesteesee people later, poor zhihui cant come :( hahaha.

SPE TOMORROW, THE BLISTERS ON MY LEFT HAND AIN'T HELPING :(

okay peixiu is happy today for a few reasons (:

1. bought a pair of heels, a bag, a shirt, a jacket and earrings, MAJOR SHOPPING :D
2. watched Meatballs today, nice show!
3. had fun cam whoring with cotton candies, hahaha

but also sad for a few reasons, dammit

1. spent 13 bucks on the movie today, because its a friday evening and its 3D :(
2. clarice did not buy many things, so its only major shopping for me :(
3. my leg almost died walking!
4. burnt a hole in my pocket, spent close to 150SGD today. you know 150SGD=approx 700RMB, and with that it can buy me alot more things from Harbin?? hahaha okay done complaining.


overall im still very happy, today's been a good day! hahaha :D

hahah i realised im getting uglier each day. probably i'll look like an old hag by 30 years old, who knows. hahaha.

okay im being reeeeediculous :p

the zhihui disease of talking rubbish :p heh

two happy things today:

1. went sweeeeeming finally, and felt good after that!
2. had seaweed shaker fries finally, thanks geok for giving me her seaweed sachets she kept from then! (:

but i still have no news of this saturday, :( but oh wells, if its meant to be, then it will be.

i've been dreaming of the weirdest combination of people and the weirdest scenarios for the past few nights. i just wake up and go "heh??"

picnic at marina barrage today! the weather wasnt quite good in the morning, it kinda drizzled on the way to marina bay. haha. so when we were there, tried hard enough to ask everyone to secretly come out to sign the card but decided it's too obvious so we just show the card to them and ask everyone to sign in front of them in the end -.- haha. epic fail.

took a shuttle bus to marina barrage. we started with lots of food first, while some others started flying their kites. haha. had a game of captain's ball after that. havent really moved my bodehhh like that much in so long.. haha. a game of 01 vs 02 again, like chalet back then. haha. its quite surprising how we can win, i think we won? hahah. yup. then yes.

dinner at Just Acia in dhoby gauht. sat and talked there till quite late. hahaha. damn tired today. @.@

very often,
it doesnt matter whether what you're doing is worth it or not,
as long as you're enjoying what you're doing (:

hahaha. yesterday was a long day. so not used to being out the whole day already, so really damn tired. haha. met clarice for breakfast at supposedly 8, haha, then went to buy ingredients for our cakes. haha. then coz too lazy, took a cab from plaza to her house, for like $3.40 :p hahah. then started to do our cakes, she was making her oreo cheesecake and me with my brownies. the whole thing took too long i dont know why, in the end i was late to meet JAYSZ :( haha

went nihon mura! haha. then after that, supposed to surprise surprise the birthday girls. so we kept saying want to go city hall/esplanade area. then i suddenly said something: "eh that night i dreamt of jon, then dream that the flyer flood..hahaha" then zaki took the chance and said: "ehhh lets go flyer lahh we never go there before!" hahahaha. nice. so we walked all the way to the flyer. chiong chiong chiong-ed cause we were almost late :p and tah dahhhhh. SINGAPORE FLYER (:


this photo is wehhhhh pretty (: love the view behind!

but jon's pose damn ah pek ehh :p haha

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haha. damn sad things didnt go as planned, i still had lesson last night, which was supposed to be cancelled. so after flyer, went for lesson while the others went for tau huay. haha. lesson also quite shiok. how i wish we can either extend our lesson time or have twice a week :( an hour once a week is really insufficient :( hahaha

oh and i damnn there's still the RMB(china currency) syndrome thing in me. still spending money like as though its RMB. hahah. taking cabs everywhere i go, and spending money without much thought :/ hahaha. oh wells.

as for today, didnt join geok for kath's birthday at WWW. still dont feel well enough to take the rides :( so im staying at home and rest. haha. gonna make potato salad tonight for tomorrow's picnic!

and i love how things are going now, really (: going out with friends enjoying myself, and putting in the effort in getting closer to our goal.. no where near yet, but i love how hard we're trying to work on that :D i believe we're full of motivation and drive now.

hahah yay finally im feeling better and out of the house and to have fun :D okay actually is not exactly to have fun luh but i enjoyed today pretty much! had rocher tau huay for lunch, then chilled and discussed about stuff before going to hark for practice. haha.

practice was soo productive today, shiok :D haha. finished arranging one song in about 1.5 hours (: then went through the others as well. a damn hardcore 2.5 hours spent today. hahah. maybe because too long never practice, so alot of motivation and drive. haha.

okay im really wondering, how can tau huay for lunch, and mashed potato+corn soup+pineapple pie for dinner make me full the whole day?? there's really something wrong with my appetite :( sigh. haha. meeting clarice tomorrow! then JAYSZ (: whee!




"you want to hold that jiao(叫)?" died laughing. best joke of the day. HAHA

DMAT picnic on 1st october! they're discussing about it now on mass convo. im excited already just by looking at the discussion! please let me recover in the shortest time possible, i dont want to miss the outing :(

really need to catch up with the others too. i've had enough of staying home and staring at this screen. grr.

ohmy ohmy, FMSL.

sucks to be staying at home all day and for three consecutive days now :( and im like sleeping more than 15 hours a day on average, probably because im on medication so im like drowsy half the time. really wasting my life away :(

outings outings outings. food food food. when can i enjoy them again? bahhhh

CRAVINGS CRAVINGS CRAVINGS!

chicken rice, starbucks, caramel waffles, nihon mura, SEAWEED SHAKER FRIES and BUBBLE TEA! i'm craving for all these things now but i cant fugging eat any of them :( i have a damn sad life.. sigh T_T

after 20 days, back in singapore!

this trip is seriously one with a lot of mixed feelings. say long not long, say short also really not that short. but its really the longest time i left home... went there, felt uncomfortable due to the dusty and not so clean place, eventually got used to it and settled down, blah, all that happened in only three weeks.

through this trip i fully understood the meaning of "在家靠父母，出外靠朋友". i had no one to depend on but my friends when i was there. okay maybe teachers too but ya. haha. i had to be so fugging suay to fall sick after having that 烤冷面 that night, which was something i dont even eat usually, but i fell sick the first time i bought and ate it :( now im having phobia, hearing the name alone makes me wanna puke :/

the night after that was really bad. it was 230am and my teachers had to call for help to open up the hostel gates to get me out, it was raining and the weather was cold and windy. there were problems trying to call for cab because all their supposed "24-hour" taxis are there without drivers -.- and it was the first time im staying in a hospital and had to drip, and you wouldnt imagine the condition of the hospital. smoking, spitting, ugly sight of their "wards" that are actually just beds lying around the corridors and patients all sleep on them. all that probably worsened my condition. luckily Dr tan and Glow were there with me.. and Dr tan even stayed with me through the night while i did my drip (:

the next few days was also horrible for me. couldnt go out and like have fun, because the pain was like on and off. i had no medication given by the doctors, and i didnt dare to take any pills that others gave me because i dont even know what was the exact problem with me -.- eventually Dr tan said she suspect its mild food poisoning and constipation at the same time, which contradicts and makes things worse -.- haha.

but i really need to thank my friends. shuyue, cladys, doreen, wendy, jasmine, elliot, dingchao, vincent, keith, chris, and all the others who were concerned (: if it wasnt for you guys, i cannot imagine how tough things would be like for me.. carrying the luggages from one place to another, esp when boarding the planes at both harbin and shanghai.. and the emotional support. haha. also gotta thank Dr tan and Glow, always asking me how im feeling to make sure im okay (: haha

through this trip, i've seen true colours of people, i've seen the other side of people. bad and good, it will stay as memories. now that we're back in singapore, its time to face reality again! haha.

photos and more about the trip will in updated in peixiu15.livejournal.com (:

i want to go home now. 

okay hey people, i've created a new blog for like the Harbin trip! haha.

peixiu15.livejournal.com

hahaha okay time flies. one week has passed and now its just TWENTY THREE HOURS TO HARBIN! hahaha. or being at the airport to be exact. hahaha. and im still irritated by the fact that i cant blog properly. thats why i blog so seldom now.. hahahaha.

right this whole week was alot of like practicing for performance and doing last minute shopping and all. took the flu jab on monday, which seemed like there's no point because the nurse said it takes 2 weeks to immune the body. hahaha. then went to do hair on wednesday, which makes up to spending 160 bucks on my hair this month, out of which the 40 bucks haircut didnt look any different :( hahaha. then majorrr shopping with clarice on thursday, and karaoke yesterday with KAY after damn long. hahaha. i think i spent more than 200 bucks this whole week T_T argh.

performance today was.. not toooo bad, but not the best. hahah. thanks geok and azh for coming! :D right and now is last minute packing for tomorrow. hahahaha. probably the next time i blog i'll be there in the hostel already! hahahaha. blogger please be my friend there (: haha

oh my and i realised we're halfway in our DMAT journey and its just one and a half years left. time seriously flies. it didnt feel like it was so long ago when we just met. things changed, moved on and here we are today, already having ideas for year3 stuff like POD and cover song. haha. and its just 7 days to china! woohoo. hahah.

really gotta say this. if my life was a story, DMAT is a brand new chapter, and an interesting one. i cant imagine how i'd be if i didnt make it here and ended up in some JC, i think i will be totally screwed up because im not gonna go anywhere with my lousy grades because i cant study. although im still unsure about my future now and im reluctant to think about it, but at least i know this is what i want to keep doing and its gonna be stuff related to DMAT. i know im not doing really well, but im really satisfied with my own improvement that probably only me myself will know. im improving really really slowly, but i can safely say im of a higher level now than 2 years ago (: hahaha.

oh wells, i hope i can keep this passion going, and strong (:

where was that gap? i dont see any!

haha, where the birthday boys wonder: "why are these people celebrating for me when i only know them for two months!"

these people are disgusting (: and marked the start of a whole year of celebrations for the rest too (:

a supposed course outing at sentosa, small number but turned out fun too (:

after milk run, all drained but still smiling wide :D

a trip to mediacorp. haha look at da ge -.- its so not something he'd do last year, with us as a bunch of retards :P hahaha

AWW. memories!

hahah finally my mood to watch drama is back! seriously totally didnt have any mood to watch like for the past dunno how many weeks. yay im happy again (:

haha and i say again is not i purposely want to hide but i cant freakingg change the colour of the words because blogger gives me problems almost everytime on Windows! haha so please highlight and read okay :p hehe

and midi assgn2 is about doing for the sake of reaching the 3 minutes, and i dont even know what im adding and why im adding it -.- really damn rubbish until i cant even be bothered to listen to it again. damn pek chek. 

and when can people start learning to be on time? i cant say im not guilty of being late but really 90% of the times i'll have to wait. (im not referring to anyone specifically, just generally) 

oh my tian im so tired. my midi assgn6 only got 1 minute. will i die? but really if my motive is just about 4 bar long, isnt it supposed to be around that length? grr. damn scared. after tomorrow we'll all be free! ehh if we ignore performnce lah. haha. but the thing is, im left with 3/4 of midi assgn2, not done with report and i havent finished studying for theory test! but i really bueh tahan already gonna do all these shit tomorrow.

this saturday is cancelled :( expected luh, but kinda disappointed. if i knew earlier probably i could have used this whole afternoon to finish my midi. not that i dont want practice but ya still got all the chionging :( argh.

okay and its 9 more days to china! and im gonna sleep. tomorrow jialat already. grr

haha like what azh said my blog is dying! but nevermind i blog for myself to read :P haha. today damn boring, did nothing much in performance class. oh well, as usual. hahaha

okay im waiting for laoshi's sms now. hope it will be on this saturday! looking forward to it already. hahaha. and i cant wait to see the end product of our video. will be done by end of today. veeeeeee :D hahaha. 

and guess what, it really works. just think that you are happy and you will be. mentality is really important. so, BE HAPPY FRIENDS! (:

okay blogger is being irritating. 90% of the times giving me problems. lucky this time never (: haha. so after a week of chionging, it was full of fun and laughter today. went out of the house with a stinky mood and emo weather, met clarice at plaza and walked around trying to get ideas for gifts. then to marina and finally got carebears with roses for them (: then guitar lesson.

then back to meet clarice again to try and find a place to eat, wanted to try Astons but the queue was awesomely long. hahah. so went to nihon mura instead. the others came and ya dinner. talked about many shit and like things more than 6 years ago. hahaha. and oh my, sitting with a whole table of attached people. zai loh. win already. hahaha. cam whored as usual, PHOTOS PLEASE CLARICE! hahaha. was a good gathering :D

at least this makes me forget about the stupid situation im in now. i seem to be magnifying it but thats just me.

i think what she said is right. let a clique remain as a clique. if a clique is made to work together, conflicts are bound to occur. and then guess what's the next thing that will happen to the clique? haha. have fun. know your perfect distance with everything.

finished mixing my drum tracks today (: nothing great but at least completed. hahaha. half done with violin and gonna spend more time on the vocals. but mixing gives me headache :( argh. and i just cant stop thinking about work and getting kan cheong over it. teach me how to handle stress better please? sigh. 

is china coming soon? lets count down. 20 days! :D hahaha. i hope it'll turn out well. please let the three weeks be fun and enjoyable and happy and crazy and nothing bad! 

oh oh, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY (: and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEITH! hahaha

haha. hanging out for 14 hours is a rare thing. and when i say hanging out i mean like not school but really out for the entire day. hahah. supposed to only go renew passport and like kinda help out in filming for them, but we seem to have had a day tour around singapore. hahaha. not exactly but ya.

met zaki at cck at 830, and went to Lavender to meet jon and seowhung to renew our passports. horrified to know that it costs 70 bucks T_T hahah. then after filling up the form and all that, went for breakfast at some coffee shop in the area. left the place at 11 plus and suppose to go to zaki's place. but on the train when reaching Gombak, we randomly decided to alight and walk to xiao guilin. hahaha. chilled there till like 1 plus and went to Gombak to have ice cream. then finally reached zaki's house at 2 plus. started filming and all that, then had pizza (: then finished and left his house at 4 plus and took a bus to jurong point. walked and shopped around until 6, and then took a bus from there to chinese garden. took 154 and didnt know where to alight, so we overshot by damn alot and ended up in clementi, so took the other side back and got there after 1.5 hours. grr. hahaha. then end up go there and scare ourselves because it was so damn dark there. decided its not a good place to chill, and so went to mrt staton and sat there to chill and talk rubbish from like about 8 to 1030. which ended the freakinggg long day. hahah

okay actually im just typing for myself to feel shiok only. haha. 14 hours of mostly chilling and talking, is really quite cool (:

i would think today is the best day of this week :D or at least for the five days that passed. at least i didnt feel shitty at all today, like i did for the past four days. probably because today was damn busy. hahah. but i didnt attend lessons at all :p

recording for shuyue this morning, so missed DVPT. then filming this afternoon, so missed theory. haha. filming today didnt go well like what we planned, but was fine. haha. i need to have more chances of doing such stuff, damn fun. hahah. and SHUYUE WAS AWESOME. she had that acting talent in her, seriously. so..

HI LEAD ACTRESS FOR MY FUTURE VIDEOS :D
the BAND rocked too (:

haha. okay now it's time i cut my ugly hair. hahaha but i guess i wont until the possibly busiest week is over:

monday-filming [its not gonna be a holiday :( ]

tuesday-mixing/editing?, vox lesson

wednesday-filming? midi test! gems test! fuggg T_T

thursday-REMT SONG PRESENTATION!!!! argh

friday-DVPT PRESENTATION!!! BAHHHH

thats how crazy next week is gonna be. like TEE DOT TEE. omg i wanna cry now thinking of all that shit. goodluck dmats (:

oh my goodness she's so freaking cute, and also HAWT to some extent :D can go crazy over her. and yes she's a girl. hahaha. she's ZHANG YUN JING, 张芸京 (: 

my mood swing is getting really terrible. the drastic change in my emotions is kinda beyond what i can handle. im sorry to those that got affected by my temper.

what exactly is the cause of my mood swing? i seriously don't know. can't figure the reason.