first day of term 2 is already a long day. started at 11am and had recording today till 10pm which i didnt really make good use of the time. damn. work's piling piling piling.

oh exchange students from Keele university sat in today. and for performance, met Nicola (not too sure how you spell that :/ ), where i felt stressed the moment i saw her holding a clarinet. i can never feel confident in it. so i practically dont dare to go near anyone who's better. erica told her to come sit with me for warm ups. and so chatted with her, to find out that she's a freakingg grade 8. no offence, but really will stress one lehhh. dont know why, thats just how i am. oh and i think im overly comfortable with the Singlish, that i cant quite catch what she was trying to say with her strong ang moh slang. dont laugh at me. thats how i am. hahah.

today, basically not a too good day. goodnight friends.

third post for the day. i know i shouldnt get too emo over it. and its weird i cant really feel it, i dont know why. but the thoughts just keep spinning in my head. i was almost confident, but results let me down. i really thank all that consoled me and gave me support, but demoralism is bound to set in. im gonna stop whining now.

zhihui said something which i thought was inspiring.

"it's not a dream we're chasing, it's a goal we're achieving"

i hope this keeps me going.

i've still got a longgg way to go. being overconfident is really a bad thing. 

lets take things slow.

I often have people ask me very seriously if I think they "have what it takes" to succeed in the music business. I usually tell them it isn't what I think that matters—it is what they think. Sometimes I want to say, "If you have to ask that question chances are no, you don't have it." 

by Michael Anderson

i think this is so true. 

it takes alot of hard work to be a really good musician. where's that drive to keep me moving? 3 more days to start of school, my work's not even half done. have been doing work the past 3 days but yet im still not close to completing. whyyy? argh.. but oh wells. not gonna blog unhappy stuff today. haha

major shopping with clarice on monday. didnt buy much but spent all my money -.- bought a pair of heels (yes, heels) and a shirt. haha. plus food for that day, there goes 100 bucks T_T but had fun, cam-whored alot. haha. and yesterday after doing work with azh and geok for one whole day, went to bpp's garden plaza to chill. cam-whored even more. hahaha. yesterday was awesome, fun and productive. haha.

the new heeeeels :D

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whee (:

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and the most unglam moments...

emo1

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emo2

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emothreeeee!

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hahaha. this is ultimate. unglam+vulgar. tsk tsk. hahah

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ahhhhchoooooo!

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sweeties :D

happy father's day..


i yearn for something reallly simple, but why does it seem so tough to get? really hate the way how it works. why do we have to split into two tables. is that a family gathering? i really envy life like yours. siblings to rant and talk your heart to, kids with innocent faces that smile when they see you, a husband so perfect thats always by your side. a closely-knitted bunch of people. why cant i be part of you guys? i wish i can always be a young girl, that never will grow up. at least i dont have to fake out how i feel. i want to talk to you all, like how any person would to their relative, where words like cousins/aunt/uncle are not just in name. the dinner ended, with me telling myself throughout: 不准哭...

happy father's day.