third post for the day. i know i shouldnt get too emo over it. and its weird i cant really feel it, i dont know why. but the thoughts just keep spinning in my head. i was almost confident, but results let me down. i really thank all that consoled me and gave me support, but demoralism is bound to set in. im gonna stop whining now.

zhihui said something which i thought was inspiring.

"it's not a dream we're chasing, it's a goal we're achieving"

i hope this keeps me going.