well today we were just having a conversation with this 23 years old dance instructor during our break. he talked about how tough it is to try to make our hobby our career, especially if you're intending to persue it in the arts sector.

and there was this thing i noticed in the way he spoke, alot of it was about financial stability. can't just do what we like and ignore our income, gotta try and find means and methods to earn enough not just for ourselves but for our family. he even mentioned about girls at his age start to look out for guys who have a stable income, it's not just pure feeling and the teenage innocent "love" anymore. hahahaha. quite stunned to hear that. he said something like this: "everyone else is going on tours, having enough money to enjoy life after a period of hard work. then i look at myself, what i am doing?"

i mean, these are things that have been on my mind constantly, it's just that when you hear it from someone who's been through it, everything becomes more like reality and it freaks me out.

what shocked me even more was him mentioning that he only started dancing when he was in poly. and now he's a dance instructor who seems.. very good at it, to me? hahaha idk how that marks the standard but yeah. but for me, if i've also only started to think about making music as my career in poly, am i going to make it?

ICOM, Berklee, Lasalle, NAFA. im thinking that when i mention the first two as my future academic options, people will be thinking: "peixiu? cannot one lah." hahaha that's fine to me because even i have that thought -.- how unconfident. but then so how? im only left with half a year, yes half a year.

If i really want to survive doing Music, i'll need to be really determined. So strong that nothing can waiver this decision.

hmm maybe i really have too much time now, at least nothing much to keep my brain occupied, and so i keep thinking about all these everyday. sigh

anyway sorry for the lengthy post :/ the thoughts are flying through my brain. verbal diarrhea. hahaha