today's was better day.

felt quite good practicing just now, because fanny suggested i should tell alicia to let me play only on alternate weeks if i cant handle every week. i was quite relieved when i heard that. but the thing is now.. i dont even know if i really can do every two weeks. coming home after a longggg day out and thinking about still having to practice 30 songs with no time at all to do work, mental+physical torture.

and i need to complete my demo arrangement for the pod song by saturday to send to the sessionists so they can play on monday, and get the 3 vocal parts done before wednesday's pract. how on earth do i find time before saturday?! argh.

yes yes im complaining complaining and complaining everyday because i just need to rant, and im too tired trying to practice more so im blogging. why did i even think i was gonna be damn free and take up another responsibility thats pulling me down down down now. sigh. my own problem lah.

friday saturday faster come. i need retail and makan therapy. gah gah la la bah bah vaaaaa