1. everyone's blog is so dead. including mine, of course. hahaha. it's three days to school reopen and i'm already trying to adjust back my body clock by waking up at 5am in the morning to work for my dad. dont know how people tahan sitting through conferences that last the whole day, all about ultrasound and gynaecology. 12 hours yesterday, 12 hours today, another 12 hours tomorrow DD: so we as AV technicians sit through with them. woohoo!

2. hahaha. sigh. why do people like to think so much? making the simplest things so complex, making the world seem so dark. we're only 18 years old, or 19. why dont we live life happily before we become adults? if you cant control how your life is like, then change your perception and mindset. hahah okay just a random thought. 

3. i never felt such a strong need for money. as in like a huge sum of money. i know doing music is expensive, but i never knew the extent until now. have been thinking alot recently. i really want to go for the summer programme next year. but how to save/earn/get 20K in a year's time? even if i have the 20K, is it really worth to spend it all in 5 weeks? grr. few months ago, i was so determined that i wont get a job until i finish my year3, and i've been persuading people to try and not work because year3's gonna be heavy. and what now? i'm thinking of part time jobs. im so contradicting. argh. even if i work like a dog i wont get 20K by next year. sigh.

4. okay happy happy now, S.H.E concert tomorrow :D but im gonna miss their opening ceremony for the circle line tomorrow because of work :'( wahhhh. 

grr, i so angry at myself. why must i change what i really like because of what the society sees and thinks? stupid mentality of mine. screw that barrier