mans, dinner today was SINFUL. haha. had kenny roger's quarter chicken with potato salad and macaroni with cheese. hahah. damn shiooooook. but i cant finish, bloated ttm ): haha. daddy bought a new bike for me :D hahah. although im like not gonna ride it often :/ haha.

guitar lesson today, first time chatting so much with shawn. talked about the music scene, the career to persue in music etc. felt damn dejected after what he said, which makes sense thats why im feeling dejected. the chinese market is not ready to accept other genres of music besides pop. every kind of music we're doing is a shadow of the western countries. it is hard to make it big in a local scene. if we take an original from a local band and an original from a, letsay american/english band, who's song do you think will be better? 90% of the people will say "of course american/england band la, need to say meh?" but truth is, when we dont mention which song is from which band, majority of the people actually thought the piece created by a local band is the one from america(the better one). what is this? people's perception is already fixed. its hard to change it. how to survive with music in singapore? hahah. then shawn mentions he gets very angry to see people working so hard but just dont make it big after years, but some dont even have to work and they are like superstars. which is luck actually.

then i asked him: "if you knew then why did you want to study music?" one simple answer: " no why ah, i like loh" HAHA. mannnn, this is really hard. am i learning music to perform or to teach? and the question remains a question. haha

geok! this is meant for you to see one! the emo talk we had when you weren't around! haha