today doesnt seem like a very good day. not gonna elaborate much.

somehow i think im a person who doesnt give people a very good first impression. socialising has never been something im good at. i kinda improved but still not good enough. too many of these emo shit stuff are bothering me recently. who is eventually there to listen to all these anyway. because even i dont know how to express how i feel. although i know there are people who care and all, but not all things can be expressedso easily. and nobody can help me anyway.. what has the future got for me? what am i eventually aiming towards? because of my low curiousity level for everything else around me besides music, what else can i do if i cannot make a living with it.

music to me, is not just a hobby. its a career i want to persue with it. my only regret now is, i wasted my past at least 13 years, not doing anything to make myself improve. im getting ambitious, but over-estimating myself.