friday was alright, went out with yating, the bestie which i havent seen for a real long time, geok and kath. hwa chong open house. so we were like treated as sec4 students being brought around pulled from booth to booth, cca to cca. haha. yup then quite liked their performing arts showcase, esp the choir and string ensemble. and the band which yating is in of course (: haha. mm, took some photos:
bestie (:
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haha, you do seem to fit the tuba well
but i think the trombone suits you more (:
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after that met doreen, seowhung, jon, zhihui and clara at far east.shopped ard and then headed for MS. then went to cut hair at chapter2, since we got vouchers from the hc open house goodie baggg. hehe. quite satisfied :D thinking of going back for treatment and dye hair.
oh wells, yesterday, adc as usual. i really got no more comments. its.. nvm. then performed for unplugged. screwed shit. and guitar class i was already not in the mood so fine. then dinner with parents, was already damn exhausted. in conclusion, bad bad day.
today, church in the morning. i guess thats the only place to gain back my sense of security and confidence. then went for lunch with mama at lot1, and headed down to riverwalk. auditions for solo was.. okayyy but not that good. but oh wells. then went to central to chill till its time to go down to chc at jurong west for the band auditions. it's screwed. well, just screwed. i guess it did nothing but demoralise me further.
KAY outside city harvest church.
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as i do all these things, i start to wonder why cant i do them well. at least just not well enough to be recognised. people say God is fair, so He made people good in one way or another. people with no looks have talent, people with looks lack talent. but me? i lack both. i wish to believe He is fair, so please God, let me find something i can be confident in. let me not feel so insecured..
