waiting for a sign, we strive up high

2012-01-25T22:58:00.001+08:00

I'm so irritated with blogger, and the tagboard spams zzz. But I don't wanna change blog... Grr.

Anyways, Chinese New Year break is over, and so I'm back to school today teaching. Getting pretty busy nowadays.. Theory exam to prepare for, working on portfolio to submit to Lasalle, working at SOMA, teaching and telemarketing..... Still got *pretty redundant* acappella practs to go for every wed nights zzz. Gotta drop some things to cope well with the rest hmm.

With all of that I still have a big question mark at the back of my head: Is Composition what I really wanna do..? Damn. Why is there no Degree in Music and Audio Tech in Singapore bleaaaaah.

2012-01-16T12:44:00.004+08:00

Just realised I'm gonna have to spend damn alot this whole year, because everyone around me is turning 21, including myself T_T but I'm hoping that everyone's 21st can turn out to be fabulous, so don't really wanna get so restricted with the celebrations because of Money bleaah. I know it doesn't have to mean spending alot to make it great, but at least don't wanna get restricted by it.

Work work work, Earn hard, Play hard, Save hard (Idk how really to cope with this three..). But yeah that's the plan till August this year. Then it'll be, study hard, and still try to earn hard. Yup.

2012-01-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

Time flies, another week is ending.. Hahah but this has been a busy week (:

Went to KL on wednesday, just for a day. But the day was soooo hectic. Took a plane to KL and then bus and train and bus again to finally reach Sunway Lagoon, in total almost 5 hours to get there, like the amount of time to take a coach down -.- Hahah had A&W for lunch! Then off we went to the theme park, the water park was awesome!! :D hahahah. Then it was dinner and gotta head back to airport already... Too rushing, too tiring. Never gonna go to KL just for one day anymore, longer trips next time definitely!!

Hahah and yesterday, I finally applied to Lasalle's BA(Hons) in Music Composition. Still having thoughts of majoring in performance... But argh. Just hope I won't regret my decision eventually. Bleaaaaaah.

And Ken's mum said "when he was young he's always wanted to be a police and I kept scolding him cause he's so fat" HAHAH. This Monday he's becoming a Millitary Police, realizing his childhood dream. HAHA

2012-01-06T21:27:00.001+08:00

After 4 longgg months it's finally January! And soon enough in less than 12 hours the guys are gonna be tossing their caps at the floating platform :D Though it had probably been a tough journey over the past few months, it's really an honour to be part of a 3000 huge cohort and marching into the floating platform, think alr also hair stand. Heh :D

2012-01-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAAARR! :D

Okay I'm a day late. Hahah. Have been seeing people post about their New Year Resolutions everywhere... And I've been thinking about mine the past few days too. So here's mine.

Balance is my New Year resolution. To strike a balance between everything in my life. Family, friends, boyfriend, work, passion, money, health. Not gonna be easy to balance all of them up, but I'll try my best.

Hope 2012 will be a great year for everyone! :D

2011-12-31T01:38:00.002+08:00

Ahhh. 2011 is almost ending. One more day!

This year has been... Filled with ups and downs. Also a year with a huge change in my life, I'd say. Gained some, lost some. 'Change' would be the word.

Have been thinking about this entire year over the past few days, and I've kinda ranked the 3 most memorable days of 2011:

3rd:

DMAT GRADSHOW (12 March 2011)
Still gets shivers when I think about the show,
how awesome that 1.5hr was. Thank you DMAT (:

2nd: 7 March 2011 <3
Needless to say, thank you (:

1st, Best day of 2011:

My 20th celebration (17 May 2011)
And you were right, this is the best celebration, and best
day of this year. Thanks to all who made the day
possible, especially Zhihui, for planning this awesome
day. Thank you.

2011-12-27T00:41:00.001+08:00

Christmas is over :( Well i know there are 12 days of Christmas... But yeah the fun's all over. It was surely different from previous years, but indeed a pretty awesome one (: Hahaha. And I've a deal with my dad to decide what exactly am I gonna do by the end of this year. So this should be it.

Work my ass off, SOMA, TAS, private gigs, earn as much as I can for the first half of 2012, and then I'm gonna start studying once again in July probably. Plan is, I'm gonna stay in Singapore. For the next few years at least. Yup that's gonna be it.

2011-12-23T01:40:00.001+08:00

Woohoo Christmas is coming!! Excited for Christmas eve actually haha.

Lunch party at aunty shirley's place, buffet dinner with parents and ken, midnight mass with clarice then probably Sherlock Holmes after that. And it's Christmas morning! Can't wait for Saturday already :D haha.

Merry Lovely Christmas my friends! (:

2011-12-21T01:19:00.002+08:00

Take good care of your ears, especially if you're a musician.

Although the root of the problem isn't my ears but my flu made them blocked for more than a week now, and it's on both sides. Can barely hear people talking clearly without straining my ears and my own voice sounds louder than anything else. But what's more important is that I'm rushing a mix and I can't get it done properly without missing details and having them balanced on both sides. So.fucking.pissed.

Just hope a good yawn can clear that damn blockage. Ffffffudgecakeeeeeeee

2011-12-14T01:14:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Hope the effort of planning the chalet's all worth it :( Quite a handful of them can't make it because of army, so it's not by choice they don't wanna be here I know, but still quite sad :(

Hmm but I'm quite keen to find out what's gonna happen the entire night without drinks. Alcohol I mean. Think it's gonna turn out pretty well and decent (: Gotta think of other activities to last the night!

2011-12-02T00:46:00.001+08:00

Short getaway to Batam tomorrow :D Just before he embarks on a 6-day journey into the forests.. Hahah. It's gonna be awesome (:

2011-11-30T13:11:00.001+08:00

I don't dislike staying home.

I just dislike feeling like I'm alone.

2011-11-28T23:30:00.001+08:00

Heheh ken's on MC today so we went back to SP before band practice. Walked ard T20 and went back to 2044 and saw a bunch of people who practically can't recognize him so funny. Michael, bunch of year3s chionging their pod, then met Glow at FC6 and chatted with him quite abit.. And I really miss school days sigh, can't emphasize more. Hahah.

Kinda glad practices are still gonna be in SP so will still be going back for the next few days. Hahah. Great day today! (:

2011-11-24T01:26:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Hate dealing with uncertainties. Everything's just hanging in midair. Bleaaah.

Just have a feeling now it's gonna be a disappointment again, so much for looking forward to it for the past three months or so :( Yeah expectations lead to disappointment, absolutely.

2011-11-22T03:20:00.001+08:00

This was exactly how I felt when I was writing the bridge for Dare to Dream (:

Now this one I'm doing is titled Let's Be Thankful For. Reference songs are like.. When Christmas Comes To Town, and Carols Of The Bells. It's gonna be up in December, just in time for Christmas :D

2011-11-20T17:06:00.001+08:00

ICOM vs LASALLE vs London College of Music via Singapore Raffles Music College. Need some guidance. Hmmm.

2011-11-09T01:31:00.000+08:00

Am writing another Christmas inspired song. Dare to Dream part II hahahah. Gonna finish up the entire song in November and have it posted up hopefully first week December, so stay tuned ;)

But it kinda feels lonely not having 35 other people writing a song together with me... Oh how I miss dmat. Roar. Hahah

2011-11-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

Why don't guys like girls with short hair? I think short-haired girls have character and some of them actually look more attractive than when they have long hair... Hahaha. Regretted not having that just-do-it spirit and shaved a bigger portion of my hair when I dared to back then. Roar. Hahah.

And I haven't been out the entire day from 7am to 12am, think it was since I left poly. I hope I still have the stamina to pull through tomorrow. 2 schools to run and then practice, traveling all over Singapore. Awesome. Hahah uh-oh 1am :/ GOODNIGHT!

2011-10-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

Just spent the past hour or so listening to Muse's concert live from Wembley stadium, because one song led to another and another and it just kept going and I was already so amazed by them (okay I think I'm quite slow), but until I heard Butterflies and Hurricanes and the lead singer went to do his piano solo, I think I went crazy inside. MATT IS AWESOME. I thought I saw dingchao's soul there. Hahahah.

Listen anymore and I won't be able to sleep tonight. Roar. Muse \m/

2011-10-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

Revive. Don't let it die just like that. Please.

2011-10-16T23:14:00.003+08:00

It's awesome

Because we both know that it's in Him where we can find Peace (:

♥

2011-10-12T13:48:00.001+08:00

I am sorry.

Truth is, You've been the best. Not even She was anywhere this close. That's why it hurts more to let go.

2011-10-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

Last Stomp lesson at Anderson today. Played "compose and play your 4-bar rhythm" game with them and winner group gets sweets! Hahah omg I think I really prefer to teach primary school kids so much more. But alot more shouting dammit. Hahah

But no schools to teach during Nov and Dec holiday means no income D:

And I want to experience living in Australia. Life there seems pretty.. Good.

2011-10-07T14:20:00.004+08:00

I knew something was wrong when the school was so freaking quiet. Went up to the music room and it was locked. Thought to myself: Is it some marking day or what? Received a phone call from colleague...

Happy Children's Day. Dammit. Wasted trip X2. Hahahahah

2011-10-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

So.. Who walked away first?

Haha. I guess all that matters is, yes, this is what's left of us.

2011-10-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

This weekend's been pretty insane, but fun (: Oh but kinda had last lesson with lasohi on friday. Gonna decide again what's next for the vocal journey. Hahah. Went for dimsum at yumcha on sat morning before heading to work. The dimsum was good! A little more expensive but the service was much better. Hahah :D

And then after work went to my baby nephew's first month party. And since ken was just one street away at his friend's party, my aunts kinda asked him to come into the house and introduced to all my relatives, from msia as well... D: hahaha.

Practiced with KAY for cmcc's D&D. It's been quite some time since we last did a mainly chinese set. Havent been updated with new chinese songs nowadays.. Oh well. And drove all around singapore today from jurong west all the way to pasir ris. 1/4 tank gone. Petrol $$$$ zzz. Hahaha.

In short it's been a great weekend (:

2011-09-27T17:17:00.003+08:00

It really irritates me that whenever I come to my blog I have to delete all the spam messages >:( But yet I don't wanna destroy it because it the first and only tagboard I've used since I created this blog. Hahaha roar.

Days have been quite slack(still), got two schools to teach but I pretty much still have my weekday afternoons available on most days. So it's either I'm getting another "freelance" teaching job.. Or I'm probably gonna start working on something new.... Since I'm already at it now ;)

And I really like this quote, for now (: So sick of troubling every single day. Hahaha

"If you feel like you're heading nowhere with your plans in life. Sometimes you have to stop designing life, and just live life. And it'll design itself for you."

2011-09-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I last spend hours on Logic, miss it! Hahaha. Been spending the day arranging, recording and tuning vocals. Gonna keep working on building and redoing some of my old stuff! :D Yes this is the feeling I've been looking for in months, inspirational ;)

2011-09-13T01:49:00.001+08:00

I'm damn sick of this feeling. Enough said.

2011-09-12T00:02:00.007+08:00

Kinda sucks isn't it? When you absolutely don't have the intention but it all just turns out that way. And precisely because I didn't intend to I'm reluctant to take the blame. Yeah I'm escaping, because idk what needs to be done anymore. I'll continue this way, and you'll continue keeping mum. This leads.. Nowhere.

"No I don't want to see you walk away"

"Truth be told I miss you"

2011-09-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

Your fringe plays a huge role to how you look, don't screw it up. ROARRRR.

But anyway, TGIF! :D YAY

2011-09-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

Yay, Appenta's been busy since 11am all the way till 10pm today. Actually more like, KAY with Zaki, haha. Went down for an audition this afternoon and guess who the judge was.. NIC FROM MLB omg. Hahahah. Used to be so crazy over him in Sec2 when he was in Superband :P But I guess the main thing was that the audition was so fun! Enjoyed ourselves haha.

Then performed at Bishan this evening as well, quite an exposure, met and heard alot of other local bands, and pushed some sales for Zaki's new album, haha. Sigh. Although we had a great time performing with zaki, but I really do hope Appenta Affair can finally perform as a full band soon. We.. Ain't complete without them.

2011-09-03T10:52:00.003+08:00

Why is it so damn expensive to study anything else?! Wanna do a quick 1-1.5 year degree/another diploma programme of a totally different discipline but the school fees seem to be totally explosive D: $25k to do a degree in mass comm at MDIS?!

And I thought I've heard people doing part time degrees at SIM and completing in also about 1.5 years, but the website says about 3 years minimum? Hmmmm

Of course I could choose to go to NUS or NTU and do a proper full time degree and subsidised.. But I really don't wanna spend more than 2 years studying something other than music, because I still want to go to ICOM.. Sigh

B.l.e.a.k.

2011-08-31T00:00:00.003+08:00

Was reading some of my blogposts a year ago (got a little bored haha). 2 years ago at this hour, we were on the plane to Harbin, excited maxed. 1 year ago, stuck in the dreadful ITP. Now, I kinda have no plans for the day, and that feeling sucks. Boooo.

I miss life in DMAT. I miss DMAT. Sigh. Hahaha

2011-08-29T15:16:00.002+08:00

Yay just finished baking some cookies :D Took the whole morning and messed up the kitchen quite abit :/ haha. Hmm, quite keen to go take up some baking and pastry courses, maybe get a certificate from shatec or the baking industry training centre or something :P Not bad idea if opening a music cafe is still one of my dreams isn't it? heheh.

2011-08-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

APPENTA AFFAIR is gonna have quite a number of performances in the month of september! :D Well.. Maybe some without our guitarist and beatboxer :( Zaki has kindly agreed to stand in for ken and be our guitarist for CLAP @ Bishan next Sunday! hahah

Just went for Averil's 21st party today, and it was good catching up with them! (: Although the guys pretty much talked all about their army stuff, but it was interesting. Hahaha. Hmm, I wonder how the response will be like if we had a DMAT chalet at the end of the year? A whole bunch of botak guys plus all the uni/not-sure-what-to-do-with-their-lives girls. Interesting ;) haha

JIAYOU AZH FOR CACOPHONY TOMORROW!!

2011-08-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

He used to be just a phone call or a text away,
Now he's all the way on another island,
Where I only get to hear his voice once every 24 hours.

I know I've grown to be reliant, but didn't know it was this bad.

I know I'm weak, but I miss him so so so bad.

2011-08-23T16:05:00.001+08:00

24 hours only? It can't be that long.

2011-08-18T00:13:00.005+08:00

WAHAHA right after posting my previous post, I have good news for both my complaints :P

One. Got a call from keith yesterday asking me to take over Qifa Primary for asst in STOMP. This project lasts till November. Hehehe yay. But this time round primary 1 kids omg. Expecting it to be super chaotic o.o Hahaha

Two. I GOT AN APPT TODAY! Finally after one month. Hahah. Heart was pumping while on the phone. Okay I might be overreacting but still it felt awesome :D hahahah

AND TOMORROW. WHEEHOO ♥

2011-08-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

Zzz. Seriously I don't think I'm a lucky person. Not in telemarketing at least. Worked for about 2 months up till now, and I've only gotten one friggin appointment. Stupid ken gets almost one every week >:( Boss is nice enough not to pressurize me, but I still feel bad. But I'm quite sure I speak alright... Just unlucky :(

And SOMA, faster give me the next assignment! :P hehe

OOHLALA, USS THIS THURSDAY :D

2011-08-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

It is scientifically proven that Hugs make a person healthier, and is essential.

And on a gloomy day like this, am needing a huge warm and tight hug. Or some sort of huge stuffed toy I can hug to sleep.

Roar.

2011-08-11T00:42:00.001+08:00

Heart vs Brain.

2011-08-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

Whenever I see BBDC cars and doing TP, the feeling comes back instantly.. When I just ended my TP, feeling like a nervous fish, and finally heaved a sigh of relief when I saw your face (:

Time really flies. 5 months, and counting. ♥ I had fun today, thoroughly. Nothing feels as ticklish as getting munched by fishes :P hahahaha. If only the weather wasnt so hot, we'd probably stay there longer haha. But still it was a great day (:

13. Take good care of yourself!

2011-08-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

第一次见你看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天，一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的絃外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开Darling更离不开你

2011-08-03T01:58:00.002+08:00

August.

Feels like it's gonna be an eventful month. Hahah. Pulau Ubin next monday! :DD likka eggcited. hehe. I sound suaku but I've never been there in 20 years of my life. hahaha.

This week is kinda my last week at rosyth. Just have to go back on tuesday after national day to complete their test. hahah. Hopefully the next assignment comes right after.. Maybe starting one week after that. So at least I wont be too poor for August.. hahah

Time, please crawl. For the next 19 days.

2011-07-31T02:46:00.005+08:00

Third Place. That came as a surprise to all of us, I guess. I'm satisfied with the results! Just.. Maybe a certificate or proof that we've gotten third will make it feel more realistic? Haha

your expectations are harder to meet each day. it was never easy to be close. sometimes i really wish we'd go back to how we used to. don't know how. i changed, so you did. fair. fair. absolutely.

Oh yeaaaaah

2011-07-30T01:29:00.003+08:00

Pretty eggcited for tomorrow :D

Reminds me of both talentquest 08, and gradshow 2011. Oh I can't stop repeating how I miss gradshow, even right up till today.

LET'S PUT UP A GREAT SHOW TOMORROW, APPENTA! AJA FIGHTING! :D

2011-07-24T23:20:00.004+08:00

Twenty Eight.

Gonna treasure the days
Gonna enjoy every moment
Gonna have fun like there's no tomorrow (:

♥

2011-07-23T01:12:00.003+08:00

It's been quite awhile since the three of us spent the whole day like this (:

Didn't manage to follow our plan to thread and go timbre at night because the queue was just too insane, but thanks grokz for the dinner! :D hahaha. need more of sessions like these, really.

Abstain. I'm gonna be fine. I am.

2011-07-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

I just want to lead a simple life. Doing what I love, spending time with people I love.

Yup that's all I want.

2011-07-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

This week was rather good (: Experienced how it's like to handle two classes as the main instructor, and man, it's not easy really :/ Ostracizing other kids in P2? Not goooood. But it was sure eggcitinggg :D

Had appenta practice today, finally as a whole band with chris :D hahaha. did a short video which i'm gonna just edit a little and upload ;)

And somehow, I really like the times we spend altogether like this.

2011-07-15T01:19:00.000+08:00

i know exactly how to rebel right now. fudge.

2011-07-11T13:00:00.002+08:00

And whenever you're upset, I know it, I see it.

I seem indifferent, so maybe you think I don't give a shit.

Maybe I'm just not doing enough.

But please, stay. Stay strong, Stay cheerful, Stay.

2011-07-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

50 bucks for transport in less than two weeks is no joke >:( seemed to be running all over singapore the past three days. but asst teaching was definitely fun. hahaha p2 kids are honestly quite cute. and it's much easier to tackle them than sec1/2 kids :p

waking up at 6am is so foreign to me now. im so tired. need to sleep. hahaha

and tomorrow will be a great day (:

2011-07-05T01:00:00.003+08:00

Aku disini hingga akhir waktu
MENGEJAR MIMPI ITU!

Haha. How I miss gradshow days. Took out my lyrics while arranging for Mimpi, and saw notes we took when we practiced for gradshow. And the three-eyed monster amelia drew. I MISS GRADSHOW. Can't believe it's been 4 months. I'm gonna take out the dvd to watch again some time soon. hahaha.

Hm, officially starting work tmr at Rosyth. Interesting ;)

2011-07-03T00:45:00.003+08:00

July started out alright. I just got a chance to do assistant teaching in Rosyth Primary (: No big deal about being an assistant, but at least it's a start, and I have a HUGE load to learn, about being a gooood instructor. Haha

Getting my table set for the new room, really slowly. Fixing them up is so troublesome >:( Thank goodness ken was here :) Once everything's done, gonna get my mic up and start recording for real. Appenta's album is progressing quite slowly, time is ticking :( c'mon, need motivation, inspiration, ideas.

Sigh, the insecurities are setting in. Not good.

2011-06-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

Severe moodswing. Zzzzzzz

2011-06-25T12:56:00.003+08:00

I can't do anything about it.

I tried my best. It's a change even I can't bring myself to accept. We need to move on. No matter what, I'm gonna pull you along and you're not leaving. Unless... You choose to.

Breathe.

2011-06-22T03:00:00.002+08:00

True friends. They wouldn't abandon you so easily, even if you made a mistake. They wouldn't turn their back against you, even if you made a wrong move. That's what they are. Decide for yourself, who's true, and who's not.

2011-06-18T23:32:00.004+08:00

Listen to your heart, It speaks,

And You will Dare to Dream.

2011-06-18T15:23:00.002+08:00

The worst enemy to creativity is self doubt.

The worst enemy to creativity is my own stupid brain :(

2011-06-09T13:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm, not the best thing about having the same day but..

I'M SO DAMN HAPPY FOR YOU GROKZZZZ :D hehe

2011-06-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

I've gotten the green light from my dad, I thought that was the last hurdle.

But there are so much more to worry about. I hate this fog. I need something more concrete. The worries are never-ending.

2011-06-02T12:08:00.004+08:00

Hahah. So we extended our stay at KL for one more night, paid only about $40SGD more, quite worth it (:

And I'm glad we decided to drop by ICOM. The place is really small, 5 storeys high. But I kinda liked it. One of the floors had 30+ small practice rooms with just enough space for yourself and the teacher. Can really imagine people sitting in for hours practicing, quite cool (: hahah. They had a small recital hall, like that of Lasalle's, a recording studio that's pretty big, and a few classrooms with midi keyboards.

There's nothing fascinating about the place, but I was pretty comfortable there. And the two days in KL made me realize living there wasn't as bad as I thought, although I'll still have to step out of my comfort zone haha. And if I am able to go there with zhihui and geok, and later on probably ken and jonathan and some other guys, we can be chasers for our dreams together (: The plan itself sounds like a beautiful dream eh? :D

January 2012, if all goes well, with our parents and all, 3 of us will probably get there first. We've half a year to prepare. *fingers crossed*

2011-05-28T21:23:00.001+08:00

One lifetime with you,

Is all that I ask for

WOOHOO KLKLKL, IT'S GONNA BE FUNFUNFUN (:

2011-05-27T02:13:00.003+08:00

It's been an insane but fun week :D

Havent been online for three days in a row, quite rare! Zhihui's birthday celebration on Tuesday didn't start off well, but I'm glad it turned out fine eventually :D hahaha. Got some of the guys to dine together at the airport and took the slide in T3! Likka fun. hahaha. Timbre after that, the pizza is really damn shiok. hahaha

Oh and it was Appenta's first live show at Broun yesterday. Thanks so much for coming friends, my primary mates, geok's mates and a bunch of DMATs :D Wasn't the best, but it was fun nonetheless! hahaha

Graduation today. Quite nostalgic, thinking back 3 years ago where we sat like that and listened to the freshmen orientation speech and all. Time flies, really. We've officially graduated. Taking a diploma in Music and Audio Technology is a choice I'd never regret (: hahah. CONGRATS ON GRADUATING, I LOVE DMAT (:

Okay that's all for now, rest day tomorrow! woohooooo

2011-05-18T00:26:00.003+08:00

TOO HIGH, TOO FUN :D

First time in USS, it was awesome shitzx :D Although I'm having a terrible headache now probably because of the weather and the rides, but I still loved it so much (: Definitely gonna be a memorable birthday celebration :D hahaha THANKS PEEPS, with loads of love!

2011-05-16T02:35:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the microphone, the maxi dress and the pair of toms :D

I spent my day with people I love, and I'm thankful for having them in my life. May this year be an awesome one for all of us. Happy 20th Peixiu! :D hahaha

2011-05-09T12:45:00.002+08:00

Sigh

Low productivity rate
No bloody income
Slacking my days away

If I continue like that I'll probably rot and die. I need to be busy with something. Like how I was crazy busy with work 3 months ago. Sigh.

2011-05-09T01:56:00.003+08:00

Lion King was pretty awesome! Loved the orchestra, the way they presented the story, and some of the voice acting. TIMON AND PUMBA IS SOOOO CUTEEEE :DD But i'm quite sad how I didn't manage to feel the sadness when Mufasa died, because I used to cry like shit everytime I watched the movie back then..

Then I thought to myself, again.. If only I could have a chance to be part of such a production at least once in my life, it'll be an honour. Woohoo! Musical theatre ftw \m/

2011-05-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

Greed.

2011-05-02T18:22:00.002+08:00

Whee it's a public holiday and I'm working all alone. Hahaha. Actually feels quite good with the peace in orchard central (: except that I'm kinda falling asleep zzz :P haha

Just finished filming Appenta's third video this morning, do keep a lookout on our facebook page to watch it! :D

I really wished Appenta could be a long term plan. But the country's gonna abduct the guys in a few months' time :(

2011-04-28T13:04:00.002+08:00

Well Alex said this on monday: It's either love, or hate. Nice, or not nice. There should be no in betweens aka "okay okay luh". Well at least we should aim for that! hahah

So here's Appenta's second cover video, Love The Way You Lie. I hope you love it! :D

2011-04-28T01:11:00.004+08:00

So after 2 months, I'm gonna burn midnight oil again, doing work. Kinda miss it, the days when all that we knew and could think of was PODPODPODPOD REMTMUMISONGWRITINGARRANGINGBLAHHHH. Sigh.

EIM presentation tmr zzz

Well I have absolutely no motivation on this project, true. But we still work on it. I understand if there are times we really can't cope with work and all, and is unable to produce stuff in time, but it pisses me off when people choose to just not do because of selfish reasons. Oh goodness i'm boiling inside. Better have a good explanation.

Alright off to arranging!

2011-04-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

I have a wishlist that will never end. Haha

I want a dog
I want a rabbit
I want 10 hamsters (HAHA)
I want to go to HONGKONG
I want to go to TAIWAN
I want performing lobangs
I want.. my pillow :( it's one month without youuu sigh.

And I can't stop staring at my phone, can I? bloopbloopbloop :(

2011-04-19T12:21:00.006+08:00

Yay okay I'm employed now, at SOMA. hahah hopefully it'll remain a YAY :D

Anyway, APPENTA'S facebook page and our first cover video, Bring Me To Life, is finally up! Please do click below to check out our page and take a listen to our cover! :D

APPENTA AFFAIR :D

2011-04-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

The Brain is the most powerful weapon. Sigh, screw Paranoia.

2011-04-12T14:20:00.002+08:00

I like how my life is now (: Have been practicing with different bands for different purposes. Appenta, zhihui's recital, MOE gig, and probably soon enough for recording for cladys' friend at YST.

This made me pretty sure I want performing as a job, even if it's part-time and won't get me much money :D haha.

Also applied for a job with SOMA, but they haven't get back to me :(

2011-04-08T02:45:00.003+08:00

today's been soo awesome (: or rather.. yesterday? hahahah.

thank you for everything, the wonderful day in beautiful sentosa, and the polaroid camera... hahaha :D

2011-03-31T19:23:00.003+08:00

March March March 2011. A fun, crazy, memorable, awesome, and the best month in years :D

Got my license, had a TOTALLY FUN gradshow, dmat chalet, ken's birthday, gradtrip to genting.. and KAY's back with chris and now ken :D gonna work really hard and try out alot of stuff! haha.

This month felt really long. Three weeks together with ken felt like three years (: well it was indeed three years we spent together..

I'm lovin' my life now (: uhh except that I've to worry about the fact I'm jobless.. :/

2011-03-27T15:29:00.006+08:00

my 20 years old pillow is just gone like that... sounds silly, but i almost can't sleep properly without it ): but still appreciated that first world hotel bothered calling me back to inform me. sigh i should've known and kept it in my bag and not under the blanket for them to clear ): too late for words anyway. byebye pillow.

2011-03-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

gradtrip is overrr :( :( :( :( too fast.

aww i really miss being in genting. flyingcoaster corkscrew SPACESHOT. i still cant believe i took that. hahahaha.

ahh now that it's all over i need to start searching for jobs. like.. a proper job. as much as i want to try and get as many gigs now to play, or play at bars with the new concept band, i think i still need a stable job so that my parents wont nag. argh. sucks much.

I AM STILL IN HOLIDAY MOOD. I MISS DMAT. I MISS GENTING. AHHHHH

2011-03-21T19:56:00.004+08:00

and for now i know
even if i lose my grip
i'll still fall back safely (:

anyway, tagboard's back! hopefully no more spams -.- hahaha

2011-03-19T03:13:00.003+08:00

Woohoo. Drove dad's car for the first time tonight, and drove alone for the first time, and parked outside for the first time. SO FUN :D

Supped with ken and charmane at timah. Quite nice chat and.. introduction? HAHA. It's a pity clarice can't come :( but oh well next time! I LOVE SUPPERS ESP WHEN I HAVE THE CAR :D I want to do the same with zhihui and geok again! lalala

2011-03-18T19:36:00.001+08:00

I.. miss my friends.

Probably because I'm just thinking a little too much.

2011-03-17T12:35:00.003+08:00

There are some things probably better left unsaid and won't matter anymore, but I feel weird about not having it cleared. Hmm so I guess this could be a platform.

For the longest time ever, I've been giving my heart, with no returns. So much that they all thought I initiated to be where we are now. But I'm cool with that because it doesn't matter (:

Well to the certain someone that I always thought was the first that can make me flutter so much, I have to say you've played a huge role in my life in dmat. I had fun working together for gradshow. I'm moving on now, I hope you'll finally set your mind and heart down HAHA. But really. Thanks for at least filling up some space in my heart for 2 years. Haha.

And thanks to my March 6th post, I'm a happy girl now (: This 10 days has been insane. SOO insane. Hahah. Happy birthday :D:D

2011-03-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

GRADSHOW OPENING NIGHT WAS AWESOME AND FUN! And i never knew i could dance so freely on stage :D

Now come on, tomorrow night is finally OUR DMAT SHOW. It's gonna be even more awesome! Woohooooo!

2011-03-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

Is this a roundabout, or just a U-turn?

2011-03-05T12:07:00.003+08:00

i'm totally neglecting my blogggggg :( AND HI AMELIA IF YOU'RE READING THIS! hahaha

i cant believe its exactly a week to gradshow, which means everything's gonna.. end. sigh. hahaha. and i'm totally screwed because i didnt pay up my application fee and submit results for NIE. but partially because i know i dont wanna be there eventually :/

but on a brighter note, I AM NOW A P-PLATE HOLDER WOOHOOO. like an awesome :D but i dont even think i'll get to drive often anyway.. haha

march is gonna be a great, memorable month. i don't want april to come. i don't want to imagine how my life will be like after march 2011.

2011-02-25T02:02:00.002+08:00

Awake for 44 hours. I'm losing my sanity.

How the hell did I end up talking about gradshow rehearsal in my MuMI report.
"The Groom theme is developed upon his appearance in screwed taking very long" HAHAHAHA WTF I CANT STOP LAUGHING.

I need to sleep.

2011-02-20T22:17:00.004+08:00

Okay the tracks that i'm gonna have in my very first "EP" given out on gradshow are:

Dare to Dream
Zou Dao Zui Zhong
Heng Xue
December
Bie Zai Kao Jin Wo

Out of which i'm gonna finish mixing one by tmr, and totally rearrange two of them after the last assignment next friday. Hahah. I'm not gonna stop working until the whole gradshow is over. Then it's time for a break. Woohoo i'm gonna keep going!

I dare not say what I'm gonna do exactly, but I can safely say I want to do MUSIC for a lifetime.

2011-02-17T00:24:00.001+08:00

I think i suck as a treasurer. Hahaha shit

2011-02-15T20:47:00.004+08:00

March is gonna be an eventful and crazy month :D I'm looking forward to it, but I hope it doesn't come tooooooooo soon. Because then it'll be over so soon and will probably be the best month this year.. hahaha

Next week DMAT photoshoot. wheee this is gonna be fun!

2011-02-12T01:31:00.002+08:00

So the possibly busiest week of this year is finally over. And yup i overestimated my ability, didn't handle it well :( Arranging 2 days late, pod1 screwed. hahaha.

But I'm gonna keep the momentum going. Here's what I'll be doing for the next three weeks, besides the last 2 assignments:

Remix and master my POD1 and edit a proper cut (by next fri!)
Attempt to make use of studios to do another at least one more song..
GET MY DRIVING LICENSE
Go crazy planning and working towards gradshow :D

2011-02-03T15:33:00.002+08:00

That's why they say it's not good to write or arrange a piece halfway and stop. Because now I have totally no inspiration to continue with my arranging. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

But anyway, MAHJONG TIME! (:

2011-02-02T00:08:00.005+08:00

It's CNY EVE! But i haven't done any spring cleaning and bought any new clothes :/ sigh.
And some things that I have/want to do during the cny break:

FINISH ARRANGING MY ARR SONG, then record and score blah blah.
Get my POD1 mix settled and video more or less done
BAKE PINEAPPLE TARTS

AND woohoo I booked TP on the 4th March, hopefully can drive out for gradshow, chalet etc (:
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hmm, at times i wish i could be more musically involved in the planning of gradshow... oh well. haha

Oh yes, i removed the tagboard temporarily because it's so irritating seeing all the weird spams on it. Grrrrrrr.

2011-01-29T01:21:00.002+08:00

It's been a long, tiring week. 8 sessions of vocal recordings finally all completed (: hope everyone's satisfied, I tried my best!

And I'm really thankful that final pod deadline's extended seriously. Which also means now I have arranging assignment to worry about before pod presentation D: hahaha.

Also we've finally started planning for gradshow and today's our first comm meeting (: really hope the whole show will turn out to be crazy awesome and we'll be bonded and all ready for chalet and grad trip after that :D

2011-01-26T02:43:00.003+08:00

okay truth is, there's no way i'm gonna finish my pod my next mon or tues, given that it has to be much more professional than 1&2. kinda selfish but i really really really hope that the presentation can be postponed :/ even if it means i have to spend my cny doing work i dont mind.

and i'm kinda worried about geok's fyp music. because it's so rushed work i dont think it's fair to be used for fyp. but argh. i'm trying my best!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and why the fuck are there so many weird posts on my tagboard?!!? kanabeh

2011-01-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

okay after today i am fully convinced that videography is not my forte. and i'm never gonna produce a film all by myself ever again. too tough for an amatuer, too much for one person to take.

but i'm still thankful for everyone who rendered me help. the gratitude stays in me. even if i won't have a chance to pay back what i owe, i believe it'll all go in a circular motion. favours will be passed on and returned eventually. whatever it is, thanks a million trillion zillion.

now, i'm gonna do my utmost best to make the not-so-well-filmed footages work, even better than the older scenes. argsh!

2011-01-20T23:35:00.002+08:00

gonna be filming some stuff for pod1 tomorrow and saturday. kinda scared and panicky, haven't been in touch with the camera for really long.

thankfully i have my lovely dongsengs geok and hui, they're always there when i need help (: ahhh hahah :D